If i was a stripper, what would my song be.
i'm so serious. it's almost 2 am and my last day of work is tomorrow and i'm up thinking about what my stripper song would be.
Once i figure it out, i'll get back to you. Could potentially be a short list. i just feel like its something every girl should know.....
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Put an end to hate!!
It's been a coons age, but i'm back and i got some shit to say.
As i'm sure you've heard by now, Prop 8 has been upheld. If you would like to read more about it, click here. I'm upset by this. Prop 8 is already so dumb, and then despite the clear support of overturning it, they STILL decided to uphold. WHATEVER HAPPENED TO SEPARATION OF CHURCH AND STATE? This is clearly very much a religious matter rather than a legal one, despite many claims that there's more to it than the fact that "the bible says that marriage is between a man and a woman". Whether gay marriage is recognized by a church is not the issue, but rather if it should be recognized by the STATE. How is it possible that 2 atheists who do not believe in God and therefore do not have a religious ceremony/blessing can legally get married, yet a homosexual couple cannot? Furthure more, the bible condones behavior that is now considered not only immoral, but illegal (such as polygamy) in the United States. In a country that prides itself on religious freedom, equality for ALL, and seperation of church and state we as a whole somehow fail to recognize that this is LEGALLY UNFAIR!!!
The blatant ignorance of the whole situation just makes me absolutely furious. "This victory for Prop 8 is a victory for children, for civil rights, and for the common good." - Maggie Gallagher, president of the National Organization for Marriage.
Uhhhh.... can someone please exlain to me how this is a "victory for civil rights?". I mean if you want to believe its for the children, or for the common good then whatever. I respectfully disagree. However, the definition of Civil rights is "the rights of citizens to political and social freedom and equality" (Oxford American Dictionary). So, NOT giving all citizens (homosexual couples) equal political and social freedom (ex. marriage) is somehow a VICTORY for civil rights? I'm confused. Please, by all means someone explain this to me.
As a single, white, heterosexual (christian) female, i want my homosexual friends, mentors, and role models to have the same rights as me!! Hell, i want all HUMAN BEINGS to have the same rights as me, particularly in the United States, land of the FREE and home of the brave!! Once upon a time, WOMEN had no rights in this country!! A even shorter time ago, minorities did not have equal rights as those of affluent whites. We have since OVERCOME (for the most part) and have since forgotten this. It was not long ago that most of us would have been in the same position, with little to no legal rights and yet we insist upon telling others that they are not the same as us, and therefore not entitled to what this country stands for. And that is wrong, no matter which way you slice it. The people of this country need to remember their history, and where we came from, and how they would feel if they were in such a situation. How would you feel if you were not allowed to marry the one you love? Nor even visit them on their deathbed because some politician said that you didn't "count" as a spouse/partner?? How would you feel if women STILL hadn't been given the right to vote? If they still had segregated public bathrooms, or made you prove that you owned a hefty amount of land in order to vote? You'd feel cheated, and shitty, and angry. Yea people are angry, and rightly so.
It wasn't long ago that the whole Miss California thing was going on, and her response to a gay marriage question was a topic of heated discussion. MISS CALIFORNIA IS NOT THE VOICE OF THE YOUNGER GENERATION!! WE ARE A GENERATION THAT BELIEVE IN EQUALITY FOR ALL PEOPLE!! We have proven this time and time again, particularly with this past presidential election. The election of President Barack Obama was a huge milestone, not only in the fact that he was the first African American president (HOW many years after the civil rights movement?) but by the impact the young voters had on the election. We were a FORCE and had a huge effect on the election, not only for president obama but for john mccain. The turn out was huge, we made our voices heard, and our leader was elected as such. WE HAVE THE POWER!! The current policy makers should watch out, because we're coming. Times are changing and fast. Our president is black, our economy is shitty, we may have a hispanic WOMAN supreme court justice, and people are downright angry and ready for the fight against "traditional" views. It has taken us too long to make the progress that we have made, and the time to act is NOW.
"black will not be asked to get back
brown can stick around
when yellow will be mellow.
red man can get ahead man
white will embrace what is right
Say Amen Say Amen and Amen"
As i'm sure you've heard by now, Prop 8 has been upheld. If you would like to read more about it, click here. I'm upset by this. Prop 8 is already so dumb, and then despite the clear support of overturning it, they STILL decided to uphold. WHATEVER HAPPENED TO SEPARATION OF CHURCH AND STATE? This is clearly very much a religious matter rather than a legal one, despite many claims that there's more to it than the fact that "the bible says that marriage is between a man and a woman". Whether gay marriage is recognized by a church is not the issue, but rather if it should be recognized by the STATE. How is it possible that 2 atheists who do not believe in God and therefore do not have a religious ceremony/blessing can legally get married, yet a homosexual couple cannot? Furthure more, the bible condones behavior that is now considered not only immoral, but illegal (such as polygamy) in the United States. In a country that prides itself on religious freedom, equality for ALL, and seperation of church and state we as a whole somehow fail to recognize that this is LEGALLY UNFAIR!!!
The blatant ignorance of the whole situation just makes me absolutely furious. "This victory for Prop 8 is a victory for children, for civil rights, and for the common good." - Maggie Gallagher, president of the National Organization for Marriage.
Uhhhh.... can someone please exlain to me how this is a "victory for civil rights?". I mean if you want to believe its for the children, or for the common good then whatever. I respectfully disagree. However, the definition of Civil rights is "the rights of citizens to political and social freedom and equality" (Oxford American Dictionary). So, NOT giving all citizens (homosexual couples) equal political and social freedom (ex. marriage) is somehow a VICTORY for civil rights? I'm confused. Please, by all means someone explain this to me.
As a single, white, heterosexual (christian) female, i want my homosexual friends, mentors, and role models to have the same rights as me!! Hell, i want all HUMAN BEINGS to have the same rights as me, particularly in the United States, land of the FREE and home of the brave!! Once upon a time, WOMEN had no rights in this country!! A even shorter time ago, minorities did not have equal rights as those of affluent whites. We have since OVERCOME (for the most part) and have since forgotten this. It was not long ago that most of us would have been in the same position, with little to no legal rights and yet we insist upon telling others that they are not the same as us, and therefore not entitled to what this country stands for. And that is wrong, no matter which way you slice it. The people of this country need to remember their history, and where we came from, and how they would feel if they were in such a situation. How would you feel if you were not allowed to marry the one you love? Nor even visit them on their deathbed because some politician said that you didn't "count" as a spouse/partner?? How would you feel if women STILL hadn't been given the right to vote? If they still had segregated public bathrooms, or made you prove that you owned a hefty amount of land in order to vote? You'd feel cheated, and shitty, and angry. Yea people are angry, and rightly so.
It wasn't long ago that the whole Miss California thing was going on, and her response to a gay marriage question was a topic of heated discussion. MISS CALIFORNIA IS NOT THE VOICE OF THE YOUNGER GENERATION!! WE ARE A GENERATION THAT BELIEVE IN EQUALITY FOR ALL PEOPLE!! We have proven this time and time again, particularly with this past presidential election. The election of President Barack Obama was a huge milestone, not only in the fact that he was the first African American president (HOW many years after the civil rights movement?) but by the impact the young voters had on the election. We were a FORCE and had a huge effect on the election, not only for president obama but for john mccain. The turn out was huge, we made our voices heard, and our leader was elected as such. WE HAVE THE POWER!! The current policy makers should watch out, because we're coming. Times are changing and fast. Our president is black, our economy is shitty, we may have a hispanic WOMAN supreme court justice, and people are downright angry and ready for the fight against "traditional" views. It has taken us too long to make the progress that we have made, and the time to act is NOW.
"black will not be asked to get back
brown can stick around
when yellow will be mellow.
red man can get ahead man
white will embrace what is right
Say Amen Say Amen and Amen"
Monday, May 11, 2009
Friday, May 8, 2009
power lad
Suddenly, i am so, so tired.
Like not sleepy tired, just drained and my head is all cloudy and i'm just... spent. Like i don't care about anything.
I had two exams today. And one tomorrow. But forcing myself to study chemistry is taking a lot out of me. Like i feel like i'm not retaining any information, and it's not even cumulative. It's on like, acid rain and batteries and fuel cells. BLEAHHHH
i'm making myself a chicken pot pie.
sex and the city is on tv and they're in LA for some reason. And it really just makes me wish i could live in LA and have a big house with a pool and it'll be sunny and 80 everyday and i can be tan and outside all the time.
But then i realize i definitely don't have the west coast attitude. I'm totally an east coast kind of girl. Maybe i'll move to Miami. This is a good idea. Then i can maybe become fluent in spanish too. i always come up with the best ideas when i'm stressed and tired and ridiculously apathetic about all aspects of my life. Like, dropping out and becoming a dancer in las vegas. Or a cocktail waitress. Or disney princess. Or giraffe farm. Or moving some really sunny warm place where i can stop being cold and get skin cancer and be a tan crazy old lady who drinks a mimosa every morning.
ps WTF is up with carrie bradshaws stupid outfits.
Like not sleepy tired, just drained and my head is all cloudy and i'm just... spent. Like i don't care about anything.
I had two exams today. And one tomorrow. But forcing myself to study chemistry is taking a lot out of me. Like i feel like i'm not retaining any information, and it's not even cumulative. It's on like, acid rain and batteries and fuel cells. BLEAHHHH
i'm making myself a chicken pot pie.
sex and the city is on tv and they're in LA for some reason. And it really just makes me wish i could live in LA and have a big house with a pool and it'll be sunny and 80 everyday and i can be tan and outside all the time.
But then i realize i definitely don't have the west coast attitude. I'm totally an east coast kind of girl. Maybe i'll move to Miami. This is a good idea. Then i can maybe become fluent in spanish too. i always come up with the best ideas when i'm stressed and tired and ridiculously apathetic about all aspects of my life. Like, dropping out and becoming a dancer in las vegas. Or a cocktail waitress. Or disney princess. Or giraffe farm. Or moving some really sunny warm place where i can stop being cold and get skin cancer and be a tan crazy old lady who drinks a mimosa every morning.
ps WTF is up with carrie bradshaws stupid outfits.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
California love
I'm officially broke. My checking account balance is $13.17.
i'm not even kidding...
ya know, it's times like these where i wish me and seyi were still together. Because i could just call and bitch about everything and not worry about it getting back to anyone and just have someone listen and understand and just..... i miss that. A lot.
i know, that in ACTUALITY i could INDEED do that. Call him and just bitch and then be like "thanks for listening bye" but that's such a bad idea on so many levels. But, i could do it. Not gonna front when our porch was on fire i texted him, because i miss that sense of security of being able to confide just about anything in one person. But i'm not calling him. No no no even though i'm really tempted.
i'm taking my check card out of my wallet. That way i can't accidentally overdraft. Selling a bunch of books back tomorrow= cash.
i'm in the library trying to study for my 2 exams tomorrow. Richmond is under tornadoe watch. i'll update more later, i have a lot to share.
i'm not even kidding...
ya know, it's times like these where i wish me and seyi were still together. Because i could just call and bitch about everything and not worry about it getting back to anyone and just have someone listen and understand and just..... i miss that. A lot.
i know, that in ACTUALITY i could INDEED do that. Call him and just bitch and then be like "thanks for listening bye" but that's such a bad idea on so many levels. But, i could do it. Not gonna front when our porch was on fire i texted him, because i miss that sense of security of being able to confide just about anything in one person. But i'm not calling him. No no no even though i'm really tempted.
i'm taking my check card out of my wallet. That way i can't accidentally overdraft. Selling a bunch of books back tomorrow= cash.
i'm in the library trying to study for my 2 exams tomorrow. Richmond is under tornadoe watch. i'll update more later, i have a lot to share.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Whats the matter with kids today?
SO. i have a final tomorrow in abnormal psych at 1 pm. I want to study more, but my brain feels cloudy and full. AND i turned to Turner Classic Movies and Bye Bye Birdie is on, with Dick Van Dyke. I love him, i love this show, and i love this movie version. It's like, super young mary poppins age dick van dyke. and the special effects are super terrible. The songs from this show are incredible, and it is just making me so, so happy. Like, if i lived back in the 50s/60s, i would have a crush on dick van dyke.
i had a bunch of shit i was planning on writing about. And now watching this movie has just made me forget everything...
i'll add it later
i had a bunch of shit i was planning on writing about. And now watching this movie has just made me forget everything...
i'll add it later
Monday, April 27, 2009
My version of hell
Militant Vegans
Circle I Limbo
Parents who bring squalling brats to R-rated movies
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind
Riceboys
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow
General asshats
Circle IV Rolling Weights
Creationists
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled
River Styx
Scientologists
Circle VI Buried for Eternity
River Phlegyas
PETA Members
Circle VII Burning Sands
George Bush
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement
Osama bin Laden, Saddam Hussein
Circle IX Frozen in Ice
Friday, April 24, 2009
it's time!
Final exams are upon us. You know what this means? This means i just reinstalled stumble upon.
Let the distractions begin....
Let the distractions begin....
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Shots Fired
Shots were just fired outside of brendans apartment. Like "holy shit he's gonna shoot!" then bam bam now cops are everywhere shots fired. I feel like you KNOW richmond isn't the safest place on earth and that you need to be very wary of things, but that you don't realize it until something like this happens. We all get the occasional reminder that there are no "safe" places in richmond, only "safer."
But seriously, why do i go to school here? Most schools don't have to worry about getting mugged/shot at/killed on your way home from the library...
But seriously, why do i go to school here? Most schools don't have to worry about getting mugged/shot at/killed on your way home from the library...
Monday, April 20, 2009
Contrariwise
i'm obsessed with this website. I cruised it for like an hour last night. I really like the idea of being super cool and nerdy and having some awesome verse tattooed on me and when asked where it's from/what it means i can say "oh, it's from my favorite book/novel/literary classic [insert name here] and i got it because [insert profound meaning here]"
i don't know why i'm looking at tatoos? Because as of right now i have about $70, which is not enough considering i still have like 2.5 weeks of school left and grocery shopping to do. and i'm almost out of swipes.
i just played Animal Crossing for like 2 hours. But seriously, what the hell am i doing with my life?
i don't know why i'm looking at tatoos? Because as of right now i have about $70, which is not enough considering i still have like 2.5 weeks of school left and grocery shopping to do. and i'm almost out of swipes.
i just played Animal Crossing for like 2 hours. But seriously, what the hell am i doing with my life?
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Where you live where you are be a star
Life Size is on. With tyra banks. That's really all i have to say. it's refreshing to remember that lindsay lohan CAN actually act....
So yesterday was relay for life. It was good. It was LONG and hot and sunny and like, no one came out really so we didn't raise much money there. Apparently last year was a lot better, it seemed really disorganized and like no one knew what was going on. And we were supposed to make panamanian snow cones (which are really good) but they bought this thing where you have to shave the ice by hand? and it was just the ultimate disaster on so many levels. The time i wasn't walking was spent laughing at people trying to shave ice and playing soccer out on the field trying to not be affiliated. But seriously. it was SO HOT. The sun just soaked all the energy out of me there was a point where i was just laying in the middle of the field getting astro turf all over me trying to pretend it was my bed. But it was good. So far my small team raised $940, although that's not the grand total. And i was i think 2nd top fundraiser on my team. Cool beans.
Got home at 11, took a shower, laid in my bed, and then went to the "epick" party. Although by the time i got there it wasn't that epick, because everyone was super drunk and going home. So i hung out for a bit and had a mini dance party to van halen. It was weird. Then came home and played animal crossing then passed the fuck out because i was tired.
Woke up at 1030. Went back to sleep and woke up again at 3:30. Played animal crossing, watched The Departed on tv (not as good censored) and went to church. Applied for an "intern" job there so we'll see how that goes. i feel good about it.
On friday i hung out with Cory. Went to panera, went to target, went to barnes and noble. I spent over $50 at target. Got a new swim suit and 2 shirts and $1 madagascar white board for our fridge. And then at barnes and noble i was doing really good except they had these journals by the check out. And they were adorable. So i bought a $10 adorable bird journal. Now, i don't know WHY i bought this? Because i already HAVE a journal, and i like never write in it ever. When i do it usually means i'm in distress. And that's a cute journal so maybe i should finish that one first?? But i know i won't because this one is adorable, adorable enough to make me buy it on impulse. I think i'm going to start just carrying it around with me everywhere, so that when i have a thought/idea etc i can just write down. Point is, i'm spending money i don't have. Whatever, i'm done caring about real life.
Then we sat outside on the porch and smoked cigarettes and talked about everything that's going on in our lives. It was really good to catch up i miss her.
i'm watching rock of love bus reunion. And brett michaels is so gross and creepy looking with his tiny bit of facial hair. i have lost any shred of respect i had for him. So gross. And all those girls deserve a slap in the face. Have some self respect.
i really want to see the soloist. It looks really good. And i love robert downey jr.
So yesterday was relay for life. It was good. It was LONG and hot and sunny and like, no one came out really so we didn't raise much money there. Apparently last year was a lot better, it seemed really disorganized and like no one knew what was going on. And we were supposed to make panamanian snow cones (which are really good) but they bought this thing where you have to shave the ice by hand? and it was just the ultimate disaster on so many levels. The time i wasn't walking was spent laughing at people trying to shave ice and playing soccer out on the field trying to not be affiliated. But seriously. it was SO HOT. The sun just soaked all the energy out of me there was a point where i was just laying in the middle of the field getting astro turf all over me trying to pretend it was my bed. But it was good. So far my small team raised $940, although that's not the grand total. And i was i think 2nd top fundraiser on my team. Cool beans.
Got home at 11, took a shower, laid in my bed, and then went to the "epick" party. Although by the time i got there it wasn't that epick, because everyone was super drunk and going home. So i hung out for a bit and had a mini dance party to van halen. It was weird. Then came home and played animal crossing then passed the fuck out because i was tired.
Woke up at 1030. Went back to sleep and woke up again at 3:30. Played animal crossing, watched The Departed on tv (not as good censored) and went to church. Applied for an "intern" job there so we'll see how that goes. i feel good about it.
On friday i hung out with Cory. Went to panera, went to target, went to barnes and noble. I spent over $50 at target. Got a new swim suit and 2 shirts and $1 madagascar white board for our fridge. And then at barnes and noble i was doing really good except they had these journals by the check out. And they were adorable. So i bought a $10 adorable bird journal. Now, i don't know WHY i bought this? Because i already HAVE a journal, and i like never write in it ever. When i do it usually means i'm in distress. And that's a cute journal so maybe i should finish that one first?? But i know i won't because this one is adorable, adorable enough to make me buy it on impulse. I think i'm going to start just carrying it around with me everywhere, so that when i have a thought/idea etc i can just write down. Point is, i'm spending money i don't have. Whatever, i'm done caring about real life.
Then we sat outside on the porch and smoked cigarettes and talked about everything that's going on in our lives. It was really good to catch up i miss her.
i'm watching rock of love bus reunion. And brett michaels is so gross and creepy looking with his tiny bit of facial hair. i have lost any shred of respect i had for him. So gross. And all those girls deserve a slap in the face. Have some self respect.
i really want to see the soloist. It looks really good. And i love robert downey jr.
Friday, April 17, 2009
clap your hands if you got a bank roll
i just got out of the shower and am eating applesauce and listening to lil wayne. I was in the library for a few hours till close tonight (2am) after i went to class. I was a half hour late to my 7pm class. HALF AN HOUR. I missed nothing. But seriously, it's that bad.
i also jumped on about 50 bandwagons yesterday. I got a twitter (yes, i know.) I also got a tumblr. I don't know why. i don't know what i plan on doing with all these things. But i have them. i think i mostly set them up out of curiosity and boredom. I wanted to see what it was all about and the only way i could really do that was to set one up.
If you want to stalk my every move via twitter you can click here.
If you want to stalk my random thoughts and findings even MORE than you do here on blogger, you can view my tumblr here
i feel like a buffalo. Following everyone right off the cliff.
My room is an absolute mess. Like i can't even walk around there's so much stuff on the floor. I need to clean it up because i can't focus when i'm in there because of all the disarray but whenever i get home i just want to lay on the couch and watch will and grace. BOO. I'll just add it on my list of shit to do this weekend.
This weekend is actually shaping up pretty well.
FRIDAY: watch heavy weights with john and julian. i'm way too excited about this. Hanging out with Cory!! I miss her. So that'll be good. i don't want to go OUT out becauseee....
SATURDAY: RELAY FOR LIFE!!! So i'll be spending all day (11-11) hangin out etc on cary street field raising money for cancer research. If you would like to donate to the cause, click here. Every little bit helps!! It's supposed to be really nice (sunny, high of 80) on saturday too. Then, afterwards, EPICK PARTYYY!! Should be fun.
SUNDAY: Chilinz. this is when i'll PROBABLY end up cleanign my room/doing laundry. I'll also probably play a LOT of animal crossing because brendan is leaving his wii here. I need to gather up fruit so i can pay off my house.
i talked to Santa today. I'm working at the office this summer. Again. i feel like a failure. I better get this internship so i can justify working there and have a good excuse to leave early. SRSLY.
i also jumped on about 50 bandwagons yesterday. I got a twitter (yes, i know.) I also got a tumblr. I don't know why. i don't know what i plan on doing with all these things. But i have them. i think i mostly set them up out of curiosity and boredom. I wanted to see what it was all about and the only way i could really do that was to set one up.
If you want to stalk my every move via twitter you can click here.
If you want to stalk my random thoughts and findings even MORE than you do here on blogger, you can view my tumblr here
i feel like a buffalo. Following everyone right off the cliff.
My room is an absolute mess. Like i can't even walk around there's so much stuff on the floor. I need to clean it up because i can't focus when i'm in there because of all the disarray but whenever i get home i just want to lay on the couch and watch will and grace. BOO. I'll just add it on my list of shit to do this weekend.
This weekend is actually shaping up pretty well.
FRIDAY: watch heavy weights with john and julian. i'm way too excited about this. Hanging out with Cory!! I miss her. So that'll be good. i don't want to go OUT out becauseee....
SATURDAY: RELAY FOR LIFE!!! So i'll be spending all day (11-11) hangin out etc on cary street field raising money for cancer research. If you would like to donate to the cause, click here. Every little bit helps!! It's supposed to be really nice (sunny, high of 80) on saturday too. Then, afterwards, EPICK PARTYYY!! Should be fun.
SUNDAY: Chilinz. this is when i'll PROBABLY end up cleanign my room/doing laundry. I'll also probably play a LOT of animal crossing because brendan is leaving his wii here. I need to gather up fruit so i can pay off my house.
i talked to Santa today. I'm working at the office this summer. Again. i feel like a failure. I better get this internship so i can justify working there and have a good excuse to leave early. SRSLY.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
100
This is my 100th post. And i wanted to do something "special" or write about something really interesting. But, alas. Not today. I'm all chemistry these next few days, and when i'm in science/math mode its hard to do anything creative.
So yesterday, i did something kind of weird. Borderline creepy, even. I feel as though i should preface by saying that i stayed up ALL night on monday writing this stupid paper that i put off for months, i literally didn't go to sleep. So by the middle of the day i was losing my mind before i finally passed out for a couple hours. Anyway.
So i'm sitting in Interpersonal Relations 323 waiting for class to start. And this girl is sitting at the end of the row in front of me eating a wrap. And for some reason, i was HYPNOTIZED by how she was eating this freaking wrap. She was just shoving it into her mouth, and not even in a disgusting way (because it was a wrap, there's really only one way you can eat a wrap) but it didn't even really look like she was enjoying it. I don't know why but i just found myself staring at this girl, and suddenly thinking about how disgusting eating is.
i mean, we don't really think about eating that much. We all eat, we all enjoy eating, and we all watch people eat in a way. Like when you sit across from someone at the dinner table, you're watching them eat whether you're paying attention to it or not. In fact, you usually only notice people eating when they're doing something disgusting or weird. But as i'm staring at this girl shoving this wrap into her mouth and i just start thinking about how disgusting eating is. Like its is gross!! Shoving things into our mouth to mash up and put into your body? Foul. Seriously i was being such a creeper watching this girl eat and thinking about what a disgusting thing eating is.
Remember that stats test that was driving me crazy? I GOT A 97!! HELLLLL YEAAAAA!!! Cruz got an A too. SUCCESS!
This is kind of weird. Kind of.
Also, 24 hour library hours start on sunday. It is RIDICULOUS how excited i am. I'm looking forward too much. i think it's a sign...
That's all i have right now. I leave you with a picture of Taye Diggs.
Yummyyyyyy. Idina Menzel is one lucky bitch. (Ps they're going to have the most beautiful caramel i've ever seen. Its ridiculous how excited i am).
So yesterday, i did something kind of weird. Borderline creepy, even. I feel as though i should preface by saying that i stayed up ALL night on monday writing this stupid paper that i put off for months, i literally didn't go to sleep. So by the middle of the day i was losing my mind before i finally passed out for a couple hours. Anyway.
So i'm sitting in Interpersonal Relations 323 waiting for class to start. And this girl is sitting at the end of the row in front of me eating a wrap. And for some reason, i was HYPNOTIZED by how she was eating this freaking wrap. She was just shoving it into her mouth, and not even in a disgusting way (because it was a wrap, there's really only one way you can eat a wrap) but it didn't even really look like she was enjoying it. I don't know why but i just found myself staring at this girl, and suddenly thinking about how disgusting eating is.
i mean, we don't really think about eating that much. We all eat, we all enjoy eating, and we all watch people eat in a way. Like when you sit across from someone at the dinner table, you're watching them eat whether you're paying attention to it or not. In fact, you usually only notice people eating when they're doing something disgusting or weird. But as i'm staring at this girl shoving this wrap into her mouth and i just start thinking about how disgusting eating is. Like its is gross!! Shoving things into our mouth to mash up and put into your body? Foul. Seriously i was being such a creeper watching this girl eat and thinking about what a disgusting thing eating is.
Remember that stats test that was driving me crazy? I GOT A 97!! HELLLLL YEAAAAA!!! Cruz got an A too. SUCCESS!
This is kind of weird. Kind of.
Also, 24 hour library hours start on sunday. It is RIDICULOUS how excited i am. I'm looking forward too much. i think it's a sign...
That's all i have right now. I leave you with a picture of Taye Diggs.
Yummyyyyyy. Idina Menzel is one lucky bitch. (Ps they're going to have the most beautiful caramel i've ever seen. Its ridiculous how excited i am).
Sunday, April 12, 2009
ITUNES WHAT ARE YOU DOING??
HI.
okay i KNOW you don't have to use itunes to download music bla bla bla but i got a bunch of giftcards for christmas so i've been using it. And so i go do download this song and its $1.29???? UH WHAT THE FUCK!????
so i click the question thing and it brings up this whole "itunes plus" spiel. Its supposed to be better sound quality and without digital rights management meaning you can burn it however much you want etc but it's 30 cents more!! NO I DON'T WANT THAT!!
I DONT GIVE A FLYING FUCK ABOUT THIS I WANT TO PAY 99CENTS FOR A FUCKING SONG. And the sick thing is, that there are SOME songs that you can only by this "plus" version of. So you don't even have the cheaper, "not as good" option!!
THIS IS NOT OKAY!!!! WHERE DO I SEND IN MY ANGRY LETTER??? I'M NOT EVEN KIDDING!!!! I'M FUCKING MAD!
ugh what the hell......
okay i KNOW you don't have to use itunes to download music bla bla bla but i got a bunch of giftcards for christmas so i've been using it. And so i go do download this song and its $1.29???? UH WHAT THE FUCK!????
so i click the question thing and it brings up this whole "itunes plus" spiel. Its supposed to be better sound quality and without digital rights management meaning you can burn it however much you want etc but it's 30 cents more!! NO I DON'T WANT THAT!!
I DONT GIVE A FLYING FUCK ABOUT THIS I WANT TO PAY 99CENTS FOR A FUCKING SONG. And the sick thing is, that there are SOME songs that you can only by this "plus" version of. So you don't even have the cheaper, "not as good" option!!
THIS IS NOT OKAY!!!! WHERE DO I SEND IN MY ANGRY LETTER??? I'M NOT EVEN KIDDING!!!! I'M FUCKING MAD!
ugh what the hell......
Saturday, April 11, 2009
PB Teen
So, out of sheer boredom/procrastination i was looking at a Pottery Barn Teen catalog. I dunno maybe looking for ideas to add to my room. Whatever.
They have some cool random stuff. But not the point.
The point is, WHO HAS ROOMS LIKE THIS WHEN THEY'RE A TEENAGER??? I mean, the bedrooms are plausible.
Lounge rooms? NO.
Intricate study spaces? No
Dorm rooms? I HAVE YET TO SEE A DORM ROOM LIKE THAT. Maybe they exist, but i've never seen one.
Just... Egads.
They have some cool random stuff. But not the point.
The point is, WHO HAS ROOMS LIKE THIS WHEN THEY'RE A TEENAGER??? I mean, the bedrooms are plausible.
Lounge rooms? NO.
Intricate study spaces? No
Dorm rooms? I HAVE YET TO SEE A DORM ROOM LIKE THAT. Maybe they exist, but i've never seen one.
Just... Egads.
Get off of my cloud
Suddenly, i have a lot to do.
i knew this would happen.
i can register for classes on monday, and i have NO idea what i'm taking. Except for another stupid required statistics class. And the advising office had super weird office hours so i didn't go this week, even though they are like no help anyway. UGHHHHHH I HATE REGISTRATION SO MUCH.
And i have my abnormal psych paper due tuesday, which i've been putting off for weeks and weeks and weeks. Its a cool assignment (diagnose a movie character etc) but i have this awful feeling that it's actually going to be really hard and that i'm going to end up hating my life. CRAPPPPPP
Tommorrow is easter. This means going to church and having honey baked ham. And i brought home VARIOUS easter outfits and i am unsatisfied with all of them. And i know i'm going to be up late tonight doing... things which means tomorrow i will be tired and probably crabby.
Today was eventful.
First i got my haircut. It is NOT what i wanted. I was REALLY unhappy at the salon, like i couldn't even fake it. And the thing is, once it's cut it's cut. You can't UNcut your hair. So i came home and washed all of the mousse and crap she put in it and it looked better and i guess i'm content now. It's cute. It looks good. But it's not what i wanted. Oh well. Hair grows and mine grows fast. Stupid mom threw away the ORIGINAL picture of my haircut because "that magazine was old" (false) and i have DESPERATELY been trying to find it with no luck, so i had to kinda peice one together out of multiple pictures and stuff and it just. Yea. I went from being an unhappy camper to a mildly content camper.
Then me and dad went to crystal city for a st. baldricks event that his cousin organized. I think it's his cousin? It's my dad's cousin's son. So yea that makes him a cousin. Anyway we went to this huge sports bar/pub (it had 3 floors!) in crystal city and hung out with family that we like, never see and ate food and watched people get their heads shaved. If you don't know what st. baldricks is i've included a link, but it's a foundation for kids cancer reasearch where people raise money and then shave their head. It was really fun. And the cousins convinced my dad at the last minute to do it!! So they paid 50 bucks and he got his head shaved haha. He doesn't really look that different because he keeps his hair military short anyways but it was still cool. Yay dad!! And Miss Virginia was there, and she was going to shave her head if they reached their goal of 100,000 dollars although i highly doubt they reached it. That's a lot of money. We didn't stay the whole time though but it was still really fun.
Came home. Dicked around, went to CVS. The stupid barrett jackson car auction has been on all day. Ate hamburgers, dyed easter eggs andddd yea. Realized how much shit i have to do and then proceeded to not do any of it.
YAY
i just realized i never told the porch story?? I'll do that later because it is rather long. But seriously, i don't know why this shit happens to me...
OH PS. i'm doing relay for life on saturday!!! And i just signed up like a week ago and have NO fundraising SO IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO DONATE PLEASE CLICK HERE. ALL DONATIONS GO TO THE AMERICAN CANCER SOCIETY!!!
i knew this would happen.
i can register for classes on monday, and i have NO idea what i'm taking. Except for another stupid required statistics class. And the advising office had super weird office hours so i didn't go this week, even though they are like no help anyway. UGHHHHHH I HATE REGISTRATION SO MUCH.
And i have my abnormal psych paper due tuesday, which i've been putting off for weeks and weeks and weeks. Its a cool assignment (diagnose a movie character etc) but i have this awful feeling that it's actually going to be really hard and that i'm going to end up hating my life. CRAPPPPPP
Tommorrow is easter. This means going to church and having honey baked ham. And i brought home VARIOUS easter outfits and i am unsatisfied with all of them. And i know i'm going to be up late tonight doing... things which means tomorrow i will be tired and probably crabby.
Today was eventful.
First i got my haircut. It is NOT what i wanted. I was REALLY unhappy at the salon, like i couldn't even fake it. And the thing is, once it's cut it's cut. You can't UNcut your hair. So i came home and washed all of the mousse and crap she put in it and it looked better and i guess i'm content now. It's cute. It looks good. But it's not what i wanted. Oh well. Hair grows and mine grows fast. Stupid mom threw away the ORIGINAL picture of my haircut because "that magazine was old" (false) and i have DESPERATELY been trying to find it with no luck, so i had to kinda peice one together out of multiple pictures and stuff and it just. Yea. I went from being an unhappy camper to a mildly content camper.
Then me and dad went to crystal city for a st. baldricks event that his cousin organized. I think it's his cousin? It's my dad's cousin's son. So yea that makes him a cousin. Anyway we went to this huge sports bar/pub (it had 3 floors!) in crystal city and hung out with family that we like, never see and ate food and watched people get their heads shaved. If you don't know what st. baldricks is i've included a link, but it's a foundation for kids cancer reasearch where people raise money and then shave their head. It was really fun. And the cousins convinced my dad at the last minute to do it!! So they paid 50 bucks and he got his head shaved haha. He doesn't really look that different because he keeps his hair military short anyways but it was still cool. Yay dad!! And Miss Virginia was there, and she was going to shave her head if they reached their goal of 100,000 dollars although i highly doubt they reached it. That's a lot of money. We didn't stay the whole time though but it was still really fun.
Came home. Dicked around, went to CVS. The stupid barrett jackson car auction has been on all day. Ate hamburgers, dyed easter eggs andddd yea. Realized how much shit i have to do and then proceeded to not do any of it.
YAY
i just realized i never told the porch story?? I'll do that later because it is rather long. But seriously, i don't know why this shit happens to me...
OH PS. i'm doing relay for life on saturday!!! And i just signed up like a week ago and have NO fundraising SO IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO DONATE PLEASE CLICK HERE. ALL DONATIONS GO TO THE AMERICAN CANCER SOCIETY!!!
Friday, April 10, 2009
YOU KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS!!!
i have a stats test tomorrow. actually its in 7.5 hours but whatever. Me and cruz studied for several hours in the library, and everytime we THOUGHT we got it, we were wrong. This test is like full of trick questions. Fucking stupid. I reject the null hypothesis that statistics is important to my life due to small p-values.
yea. i'm losing my mind.
i'm going home for easter because my friend can give me a ride tomorrow even though it means skipping chemistry, although somehow i think i'll live. i don't really have anything else to say right now because all i am thinking about is how stupid statistics is and i feel like all i do is bitch about that class. But kate wanted me to post so THIS WILL HAVE TO DO until tomorrow when i'm home, and will PROBABLY have trip home stories.
and if not i'll update anyway because it's been awhile and i'll be looking for something to do. OH and maybe i'll discuss the baltimore trip/family reunion. Not doing this now no no no because then i'll just never go to sleep even though its already 343 am.
Friday, April 3, 2009
Thursday, April 2, 2009
SOUL CRUSHING 101
I'm in my 7-940 personality and "personal growth" class right now and i freaking hate it.
i watched 2 episodes of the office, wrote my chem blog, and brought my coloring calendar but i don't think i'm gonna break that out because we may be getting out soon.
But seriously. This class ruins all things that are potentially good about thursdays. And on that note i leave you this wonderful old picture of my middle brother found by kate. Enjoy.
i watched 2 episodes of the office, wrote my chem blog, and brought my coloring calendar but i don't think i'm gonna break that out because we may be getting out soon.
But seriously. This class ruins all things that are potentially good about thursdays. And on that note i leave you this wonderful old picture of my middle brother found by kate. Enjoy.
It's 1:12 AM
And i have a 2 page relationship paper due tomorrow at 2pm.
And i haven't started it yet.
And i'm not even freaking out. Which i think is a problem??
I actually accomplished quite a bit today DESPITE taking like a 4 hour nap. That's probably why i'm awake right now and not losing my cool. I think i'm going to write it on gender roles and androgyny.
And i haven't started it yet.
And i'm not even freaking out. Which i think is a problem??
I actually accomplished quite a bit today DESPITE taking like a 4 hour nap. That's probably why i'm awake right now and not losing my cool. I think i'm going to write it on gender roles and androgyny.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Brothers on a Hotel Bed
This weekend was super mellow. I was sick and feeling like crap thursday and friday. Saturday i went to STRUT (it was a great show!) and then just hung out because nothing really was going on. Went to the village with allena and cory and melissa and had a baller black and white milkshake. It was victory in a cup.
Saturday was also the huge Ukrops 10k, but surprisingly it didn't wake me up. The cable company did at 1030 AM but thats not important. What IS important is that on the side of Broad street there was this HUGE stack of boxes filled paper cups that were used for water etc for all the runners. They were just sitting there! So we each took a box. And now we have like 500 something paper cups to do what we please. We covered k'shonda's door with them, and built a large tower. But we still have quite a bunch that remain unopened in addition to the ones we saved. I don't know what we will eventually do with all of them (lemonade stand?) but it will be brilliant.
Sunday i went to church which was good. Possibly working there next year but i will update on that later. They had this priest from california that talked about the environment and he was really interesting. Did you know the number one thing you can do to help the environment is stop eating beef? Seriously! And i'm not talking just about greenhouse gases, but the amount of water it takes to create 1lb of ground beef is over 500 gallons. OVER 500 GALLONS OF WATER PER POUND.
Then julian and john came over and we TRIED to watch heavyweights but that didn't work, so we watched police academy instead and talked about poop and lurked google maps. Google maps fucking creeps me out. Like i can see my car in my driveway and i don't like that one little bit because it just reaffirms that big brother is always watching.
Today went to class, actually sort of understood what statistics was talking about and got pissed off at all the rude people in our gigantic chemistry class. Came home, made important phone calls/emails and did a lot of reading for Abnormal. Went to yoga which was AWESOME it was my favorite class yet. All that tension just went away. Then watched tnt crime dramas and ate subway.
I feel like a lot of things are happening really fast. The job search, for instance. I'm trying to keep my options open and apply for a bunch of similar options (summer camps etc). And my dad keeps asking me what my plans are and i keep saying "i don't know" because i DON'T know. Whether i spend majority of my summer in richmond or in nova all depends on where/if i can get a job that i like.
I got put on the list to be interviewed for this "psyc 493 internship" thing over the summer where you take a week of class then work at this camp for kids with incarcerated mothers and recieve 3 credits for it. So if i get/decide to do that then i'll probably just work in nova for june/half of july and then come back down here to do that.
I also impusively filled out this online application/profile for college nannies and tutors.com and surprisingly THEY called me while i was in class and left me a voicemail saying they want to discuss what types of jobs i'm interested in. Then i was like "holy shit what if i'm a fucking nanny all summer?" but when i called back she didn't pick up so i left a message. That would be in richmond. And i don't know what the hell my parents would say if i told them i wasn't really coming home that much because i was being a nanny. And whether i do that job depends on if they place me somewhere/how much i get paid etc.
I also need to get my resume together to apply for daycamp mclean in nova. But they don't have an application just an email address that says "send resumes to" and to be honest, i do not have a resume. I've never put one together. So maybe i'll get my dad to help me with that this weekend. That pays 12 bucks an hour, and i would be home which would be considerably cheaper.
I don't know.
IT REALLY ALL JUST DEPENDS ON A LOT OF THINGS!!! And shit is suddenly happening fast and i'm feeling pressured to have my summer figured out and the truth is i probably won't ACTUALLY have a plan till school is like, over.
Going home/to baltimore this weekend with the fam will probably be good/helpful because then i can get their perspectives and advice. But the clock is tickingg.
And these are the kinds of things i think about when i'm trying to fall asleep. Its no wonder i never go to bed before 3am anymore....
Saturday was also the huge Ukrops 10k, but surprisingly it didn't wake me up. The cable company did at 1030 AM but thats not important. What IS important is that on the side of Broad street there was this HUGE stack of boxes filled paper cups that were used for water etc for all the runners. They were just sitting there! So we each took a box. And now we have like 500 something paper cups to do what we please. We covered k'shonda's door with them, and built a large tower. But we still have quite a bunch that remain unopened in addition to the ones we saved. I don't know what we will eventually do with all of them (lemonade stand?) but it will be brilliant.
Sunday i went to church which was good. Possibly working there next year but i will update on that later. They had this priest from california that talked about the environment and he was really interesting. Did you know the number one thing you can do to help the environment is stop eating beef? Seriously! And i'm not talking just about greenhouse gases, but the amount of water it takes to create 1lb of ground beef is over 500 gallons. OVER 500 GALLONS OF WATER PER POUND.
Then julian and john came over and we TRIED to watch heavyweights but that didn't work, so we watched police academy instead and talked about poop and lurked google maps. Google maps fucking creeps me out. Like i can see my car in my driveway and i don't like that one little bit because it just reaffirms that big brother is always watching.
Today went to class, actually sort of understood what statistics was talking about and got pissed off at all the rude people in our gigantic chemistry class. Came home, made important phone calls/emails and did a lot of reading for Abnormal. Went to yoga which was AWESOME it was my favorite class yet. All that tension just went away. Then watched tnt crime dramas and ate subway.
I feel like a lot of things are happening really fast. The job search, for instance. I'm trying to keep my options open and apply for a bunch of similar options (summer camps etc). And my dad keeps asking me what my plans are and i keep saying "i don't know" because i DON'T know. Whether i spend majority of my summer in richmond or in nova all depends on where/if i can get a job that i like.
I got put on the list to be interviewed for this "psyc 493 internship" thing over the summer where you take a week of class then work at this camp for kids with incarcerated mothers and recieve 3 credits for it. So if i get/decide to do that then i'll probably just work in nova for june/half of july and then come back down here to do that.
I also impusively filled out this online application/profile for college nannies and tutors.com and surprisingly THEY called me while i was in class and left me a voicemail saying they want to discuss what types of jobs i'm interested in. Then i was like "holy shit what if i'm a fucking nanny all summer?" but when i called back she didn't pick up so i left a message. That would be in richmond. And i don't know what the hell my parents would say if i told them i wasn't really coming home that much because i was being a nanny. And whether i do that job depends on if they place me somewhere/how much i get paid etc.
I also need to get my resume together to apply for daycamp mclean in nova. But they don't have an application just an email address that says "send resumes to" and to be honest, i do not have a resume. I've never put one together. So maybe i'll get my dad to help me with that this weekend. That pays 12 bucks an hour, and i would be home which would be considerably cheaper.
I don't know.
IT REALLY ALL JUST DEPENDS ON A LOT OF THINGS!!! And shit is suddenly happening fast and i'm feeling pressured to have my summer figured out and the truth is i probably won't ACTUALLY have a plan till school is like, over.
Going home/to baltimore this weekend with the fam will probably be good/helpful because then i can get their perspectives and advice. But the clock is tickingg.
And these are the kinds of things i think about when i'm trying to fall asleep. Its no wonder i never go to bed before 3am anymore....
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
It's one of those days
So, today i had a statistics test. Which means last night i was up late hating my life and doing practice tests and the only reason i didn't write a post was because my internet in my room wasn't working. I studied with Cruz in the library for a while and i thought it was helping, only he just confused me more because he was asking all these complicated questions that i didn't know the answers to. And so when i got home i tried to figure it all out, but i totally blanked on this one question on the test and i HOPE i got the rest right. Whatever it's too late now.
Then i went to chemistry class, but the stats test took me all 40 minutes to complete, and i NEEDED coffee (because i finally fell asleep at 5am) so i ran to starbucks and back to chem in the 10 minute period in between. But by the time i got to chem the lecture hall was pretty full and shayla and taylor et. al (like that lit reference?) had saved me a seat in the middle of the middle of the back section, so i had to squeeeeze past a buch of people to get to it. And these 2 girls KIND of moved out of the way, but there is NO space between the seats and i got all tripped up trying not to blatantly step on them and then i like, FELL across 3 seats. It could've been worse because taylor sort of caught me by my arm and prevented me from smashing my face on the seat and i somehow didn't spill my drink, but seriously i went flying all because these dumb bitches wouldn't move. And lots of people saw. And i was humiliated, yet laughing at the same time.
So i finally sit down and start taking notes and stuff and am for some reason REALLY into the lecture, trying to figure out what the HELL he's talking about with CO2 absorbing infared radiation and drawing pictures when the fire alarm goes off scaring the SHIT out of me. So now i have no idea what he was saying and am gonna be all thrown off next class.
Currently sitting in the dark watching tv and its project runway reruns (the one with christian on it) and victoria beckham is the guest judge and i just loveeee her. She was my fav spice girl back in the day. I just want to BE her, she's def my girl crush. And this was one of my fav seasons of project runway.
Kelsey is having a REALLY bad day, she lost her internship because of the economy which means she doesn't have a job this summer. Among other things that i'm not gonna put up here because, that's her life not mine. But this freaks me out because i don't have a job, i've given up on finding an internship because it's pretty much too late for that, and this just reminds me that NO one is safe. And it scares the living hell out of me. i can't even fathom what the hell is gonna happen when we graduate. Terrifying.
Also, Tyson Beckford, i want to eat you for lunch. PLEASE contact me as soon as possible because then i can die a happy woman.
Weirdest episode of CSI i've ever seen. That's saying a lot.
Edit:
One more thing. I'm thinking of getting my monroe pierced. I temporarily forgot about it, but i'm back on the idea again. Thoughts??
Then i went to chemistry class, but the stats test took me all 40 minutes to complete, and i NEEDED coffee (because i finally fell asleep at 5am) so i ran to starbucks and back to chem in the 10 minute period in between. But by the time i got to chem the lecture hall was pretty full and shayla and taylor et. al (like that lit reference?) had saved me a seat in the middle of the middle of the back section, so i had to squeeeeze past a buch of people to get to it. And these 2 girls KIND of moved out of the way, but there is NO space between the seats and i got all tripped up trying not to blatantly step on them and then i like, FELL across 3 seats. It could've been worse because taylor sort of caught me by my arm and prevented me from smashing my face on the seat and i somehow didn't spill my drink, but seriously i went flying all because these dumb bitches wouldn't move. And lots of people saw. And i was humiliated, yet laughing at the same time.
So i finally sit down and start taking notes and stuff and am for some reason REALLY into the lecture, trying to figure out what the HELL he's talking about with CO2 absorbing infared radiation and drawing pictures when the fire alarm goes off scaring the SHIT out of me. So now i have no idea what he was saying and am gonna be all thrown off next class.
Currently sitting in the dark watching tv and its project runway reruns (the one with christian on it) and victoria beckham is the guest judge and i just loveeee her. She was my fav spice girl back in the day. I just want to BE her, she's def my girl crush. And this was one of my fav seasons of project runway.
Kelsey is having a REALLY bad day, she lost her internship because of the economy which means she doesn't have a job this summer. Among other things that i'm not gonna put up here because, that's her life not mine. But this freaks me out because i don't have a job, i've given up on finding an internship because it's pretty much too late for that, and this just reminds me that NO one is safe. And it scares the living hell out of me. i can't even fathom what the hell is gonna happen when we graduate. Terrifying.
Also, Tyson Beckford, i want to eat you for lunch. PLEASE contact me as soon as possible because then i can die a happy woman.
Weirdest episode of CSI i've ever seen. That's saying a lot.
Edit:
One more thing. I'm thinking of getting my monroe pierced. I temporarily forgot about it, but i'm back on the idea again. Thoughts??
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Presidential bracket
Obama picked VCU over UCLA.
Here's hoping!!! I'm confident in my team, yet i'm also realistic. I'm also LOVING all the shout outs we've been getting!! It's a great time to be a VCU student.
Here's hoping!!! I'm confident in my team, yet i'm also realistic. I'm also LOVING all the shout outs we've been getting!! It's a great time to be a VCU student.
Poker Face
Suddenly, i have the urge to watch Paris Is Burning. i'm sure i could find it on the internet however the wireless is so unreliable i would just end up staying up all night trying to get it to load/watch it. Think Yes Dance meets powerful documentary meets the art of Voguing. You better WERK! And no, i didn't watch rupauls drag race today.
Kate got me thinking about clothes and SHOES and how much i just want to shop shop shop but i can't because i dont have any money (speaking of money i'm resolving the whole rent/eviction problem tomorrow but i don't want to discuss it because i finally kind of calmed down). I feel like, no matter how many clothes i have i never have anything to wear. Or at least not anything i want to wear. i ADORE this dress
Like i just LOVE it. And it's very me. I kind of don't think i'm skinny enough to pull it off (and don't start giving me shit about how skinny i am for how tall i am) but i would rock this so hard. Someone buy it for me, please? Anyway, point is over break i was in kohls and they had these shoes that i really liked and wanted and COULD buy, but they were also small enough to fit in my bag. So i tried them on, and wandered around the shoe dept contemplating if i should steal the shoes or not. It was like almost close no one would notice they didn't have tags on them and as far as i could tell there weren't cameras pointed on the location in which i was standing. I DIDN'T STEAL THE SHOES. But now, i'm at that point where i keep thinking how i could've gotten away with it (probably) and how i should've done it because i didn't have a gut instinct telling me not to. There was a point in time where i would've done it without hesitation, but not this time. And i should have.
IT IS THAT SERIOUS!! I am thinking about how i SHOULD have stolen some shoes.... what the fuck. And i love that lady gaga doesn't ever wear pants. I just love her and how she's doing her thing and doing what she wants and doesn't give a fuck. I am a fan of no pants. I often have to put them on when people come over.
Today was saint patricks day. And i don't really give a fuck. I wore green, didn't go out and stayed curled up on the couch in sweatpants watching SVU drinking white grape juice because juice is good and i spill a lot. i did go to the gym with kelsey and that was good except i've been feeling SO. TIRED lately which isn't good. Because i haven't really been doing anything. Also got to play animal crossing AGAIN today (yay!) and according to weather man we will see sun tomorrow!!
i got an 81 on my personality midterm. I guess i'm not dropping it? Since that's technically a B? Kind of pleasently surprised yet disappointed at the same time. I bet i totally blew those short answer questions. But i also didn't really study. Like at all. Whatever.
i need a haircut.
Kate got me thinking about clothes and SHOES and how much i just want to shop shop shop but i can't because i dont have any money (speaking of money i'm resolving the whole rent/eviction problem tomorrow but i don't want to discuss it because i finally kind of calmed down). I feel like, no matter how many clothes i have i never have anything to wear. Or at least not anything i want to wear. i ADORE this dress
Like i just LOVE it. And it's very me. I kind of don't think i'm skinny enough to pull it off (and don't start giving me shit about how skinny i am for how tall i am) but i would rock this so hard. Someone buy it for me, please? Anyway, point is over break i was in kohls and they had these shoes that i really liked and wanted and COULD buy, but they were also small enough to fit in my bag. So i tried them on, and wandered around the shoe dept contemplating if i should steal the shoes or not. It was like almost close no one would notice they didn't have tags on them and as far as i could tell there weren't cameras pointed on the location in which i was standing. I DIDN'T STEAL THE SHOES. But now, i'm at that point where i keep thinking how i could've gotten away with it (probably) and how i should've done it because i didn't have a gut instinct telling me not to. There was a point in time where i would've done it without hesitation, but not this time. And i should have.
IT IS THAT SERIOUS!! I am thinking about how i SHOULD have stolen some shoes.... what the fuck. And i love that lady gaga doesn't ever wear pants. I just love her and how she's doing her thing and doing what she wants and doesn't give a fuck. I am a fan of no pants. I often have to put them on when people come over.
Today was saint patricks day. And i don't really give a fuck. I wore green, didn't go out and stayed curled up on the couch in sweatpants watching SVU drinking white grape juice because juice is good and i spill a lot. i did go to the gym with kelsey and that was good except i've been feeling SO. TIRED lately which isn't good. Because i haven't really been doing anything. Also got to play animal crossing AGAIN today (yay!) and according to weather man we will see sun tomorrow!!
i got an 81 on my personality midterm. I guess i'm not dropping it? Since that's technically a B? Kind of pleasently surprised yet disappointed at the same time. I bet i totally blew those short answer questions. But i also didn't really study. Like at all. Whatever.
i need a haircut.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Shiver
today we got a summons from the rental company to drag our asses to court over 400 dollars that i sent in today.
....
i am not amused. i called and left a message when i got said letter. Tomorrows phone convo after morning class should be fun.
coldplay coldplay coldplay why am i suddenly addicted to you? Their music just REALLY grew on me all of a sudden.
Today was back to the old grind. Only i just had a bunch of tests so i don't really have any work to do and it's really throwing me off. Went to class, came home, played animal crossing (FINALLY!) and then watched 2 of the craziest episodes of wife swap i've ever seen. Got letter from landmarks lawyer (grrr...) then went to yoga. Which was really good, except there is STILL all this tension in my lower back. It's been like, partially released and it feels reallly weird. Guess i'll spend some quality time in childs pose before i go to sleep.
Then we went to capital ale house for dollar burger night. That was fun, even though it took awhile. i didn't eat as much as i did last time; stuck to ONE burger and some fries.
Tommorrow is a big day: Go to class, talk to rental company, fill out APB application. I think that would be a good/fun job for me to have during the school year next year. A way to get involved, a way to get paid.
I'm currently looking for a summer job. The search has just started and my hopes are high, however i have no idea still what i really want to do. Nova or Richmond? i feel like whichever one i choose it'll be the wrong choice. I'm trying to get a summer camp counseler type position; but i would do lots of things, except work with food and PREFERRABLY not in an office setting. Because if i want to work in an office, i can go home and be essentially GUARANTEED a job and not have to be trained. I'm trying to get creative in my search, because everyone and their mom is cruising craigslist etc right now. But it's hard. The prospects are grim.
Random story: my last dinner at home, i spilt my milk alllll over my dad. Like knocked the glass over onto him and got milk everywhere. It was funny, except mom didn't think so.
So what do you guys think of my new layout? Like? Dislike? i like it better than the previous one i had, but i'm still not sure this is the one. Leave your thoughts please.
i should probably sleep since i have to talk to angry people tomorrow.
....
i am not amused. i called and left a message when i got said letter. Tomorrows phone convo after morning class should be fun.
coldplay coldplay coldplay why am i suddenly addicted to you? Their music just REALLY grew on me all of a sudden.
Today was back to the old grind. Only i just had a bunch of tests so i don't really have any work to do and it's really throwing me off. Went to class, came home, played animal crossing (FINALLY!) and then watched 2 of the craziest episodes of wife swap i've ever seen. Got letter from landmarks lawyer (grrr...) then went to yoga. Which was really good, except there is STILL all this tension in my lower back. It's been like, partially released and it feels reallly weird. Guess i'll spend some quality time in childs pose before i go to sleep.
Then we went to capital ale house for dollar burger night. That was fun, even though it took awhile. i didn't eat as much as i did last time; stuck to ONE burger and some fries.
Tommorrow is a big day: Go to class, talk to rental company, fill out APB application. I think that would be a good/fun job for me to have during the school year next year. A way to get involved, a way to get paid.
I'm currently looking for a summer job. The search has just started and my hopes are high, however i have no idea still what i really want to do. Nova or Richmond? i feel like whichever one i choose it'll be the wrong choice. I'm trying to get a summer camp counseler type position; but i would do lots of things, except work with food and PREFERRABLY not in an office setting. Because if i want to work in an office, i can go home and be essentially GUARANTEED a job and not have to be trained. I'm trying to get creative in my search, because everyone and their mom is cruising craigslist etc right now. But it's hard. The prospects are grim.
Random story: my last dinner at home, i spilt my milk alllll over my dad. Like knocked the glass over onto him and got milk everywhere. It was funny, except mom didn't think so.
So what do you guys think of my new layout? Like? Dislike? i like it better than the previous one i had, but i'm still not sure this is the one. Leave your thoughts please.
i should probably sleep since i have to talk to angry people tomorrow.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
504
it's 5:04 pm on sunday and i'm all packed and waiting to go back to school.
i WAS looking forward to it, till shayla called me and said my rent check came back because i forgot to put a stamp on it (stupid stupid) and now our rent is late. And they sent a letter to our house on the 5th, saying everything had to be paid within 5 days (like the late fee etc) cept we were all on spring break. So i dunno if that messes shit up but i do NOT feel like dealing with that. Like they're gonna threaten to drag us to court or some shit and i'm just gonna call and be like "hi we were on spring break i'm sending you your money cool your fucking jets" and i don't even know how we go about renewing our lease? i am not even trying to move/find a new place to live.
i've accomplished absolutely NOTHING over this break. Seriously. i didn't even get to the post office, me and dad have YET to do my taxes, i didn't get my hair cut. i just sat around being a waste case.
SPEAKING of waste cases, friday night me and lauren drank an entire bottle of expensive red wine. it was a very bad choice. Putting that in my bad idea box and not doing that again.
Last night i hung out with tricia and we went to this dance competition. We were not affiliated with any studio that was competing, we simply went there to HATE on bitches. And we hated. Unless they were actually good. Then we cheered.
The weather these past few days has been absolutely dreadful; cloudy rainy cold blah. And my car has something wrong with it that ALSO didn't get fixed over break which means i'm NOT taking it back to school. lame.
i've really enjoyed having reliable internet. i downloaded a shit ton of music and listened to my pandora a lot a lot. Speaking of internets, check out this shout out!! HEYYY represent that's my school! On a totally random note, i'm making my dad a lil wayne mix to play in the OR. Not even joking. He's excited.
Mom is making stir fry. Yummmm.
Also, i beat my bubble blaster high score over break. It was glorius.
i WAS looking forward to it, till shayla called me and said my rent check came back because i forgot to put a stamp on it (stupid stupid) and now our rent is late. And they sent a letter to our house on the 5th, saying everything had to be paid within 5 days (like the late fee etc) cept we were all on spring break. So i dunno if that messes shit up but i do NOT feel like dealing with that. Like they're gonna threaten to drag us to court or some shit and i'm just gonna call and be like "hi we were on spring break i'm sending you your money cool your fucking jets" and i don't even know how we go about renewing our lease? i am not even trying to move/find a new place to live.
i've accomplished absolutely NOTHING over this break. Seriously. i didn't even get to the post office, me and dad have YET to do my taxes, i didn't get my hair cut. i just sat around being a waste case.
SPEAKING of waste cases, friday night me and lauren drank an entire bottle of expensive red wine. it was a very bad choice. Putting that in my bad idea box and not doing that again.
Last night i hung out with tricia and we went to this dance competition. We were not affiliated with any studio that was competing, we simply went there to HATE on bitches. And we hated. Unless they were actually good. Then we cheered.
The weather these past few days has been absolutely dreadful; cloudy rainy cold blah. And my car has something wrong with it that ALSO didn't get fixed over break which means i'm NOT taking it back to school. lame.
i've really enjoyed having reliable internet. i downloaded a shit ton of music and listened to my pandora a lot a lot. Speaking of internets, check out this shout out!! HEYYY represent that's my school! On a totally random note, i'm making my dad a lil wayne mix to play in the OR. Not even joking. He's excited.
Mom is making stir fry. Yummmm.
Also, i beat my bubble blaster high score over break. It was glorius.
Friday, March 6, 2009
On repeat
All day i have been listening to:
- Jimi Hendrix (especially Wind Cries Mary- i swear 30 times today)
- Kanye West 808s & heartbreak
- Jimmy Eat World Futures
- Jon Foreman The Cure for pain (probably 10 times today)
Guess i've been hangin out in the J section of itunes.
What is it about Statistics that just makes me want to quit at life? It's not even that hard. Like in the grand scheme of things, statistics is not hard. At least it's not yet. i PROBABLY shouldn't have said anything about it being easy. Crap.
The stress has finally got to me. Thank god i only have one more test. I've already had a mini mental breakdown; i just like FREAKED out and started spewing out random angry things about my life and it was totally ridiculous. At this exact moment in time i feel unhappy and confused but i think it's just because i've felt overwhelmed this past week and all the outside factors BESIDES school are not helping.
Took my 323 exam (interpersonal relationships) today at 2. It went okay. i felt really under prepared for it and i hate hate hate that feeling. But i got the discussion question so i guess that's good. I dunno. To be honest interpersonal relationships are the LAST thing i want to be studying right now.
i also took my personality midterm tonight. That was pleasantly easier than i expected. I was super under prepared for that too but whatever. That teacher is an absolute joke, and would be a damn fool if she didn't curve it. So i finished that exam; do i feel like i know what i just completed? No. Sucks.
Sat in the compass after that exam in the dark and the quite and the borderline pleasant weather and sucked down a cigarette in an attempt to relax a little bit. i like hanging out on campus at night, it's a totally different place. Shafer had a burrito bar, and i watched a video of a cat leaping into a wall. That was about the highlight of my day.
The office was new, and kind of funny. I've seen more hilarious episodes. Quest crew won ABDC and i'm not mad because their last performance was fucking legit. It was REALLY good. Beat Freaks are my girls though for real, i'm super proud of them. And quest reminds me so much of jabbawockeez and super crew that i was kind of hoping that something different would happen. But whatever. Like i said, they deserve it i can't even be mad.
And now, i'm sitting in my room at my desk trying to study Normal Distributions. Correction trying to simply FOCUS on normal distributions. It's not going well. Obviously.
Whatever. I just gotta get through one more test and then i can be done and pack up my shit and go home and stop being strong and keeping myself together because someone will be around to take care of me when i lose my fucking mind.
It's going to happen soon.
- Jimi Hendrix (especially Wind Cries Mary- i swear 30 times today)
- Kanye West 808s & heartbreak
- Jimmy Eat World Futures
- Jon Foreman The Cure for pain (probably 10 times today)
Guess i've been hangin out in the J section of itunes.
What is it about Statistics that just makes me want to quit at life? It's not even that hard. Like in the grand scheme of things, statistics is not hard. At least it's not yet. i PROBABLY shouldn't have said anything about it being easy. Crap.
The stress has finally got to me. Thank god i only have one more test. I've already had a mini mental breakdown; i just like FREAKED out and started spewing out random angry things about my life and it was totally ridiculous. At this exact moment in time i feel unhappy and confused but i think it's just because i've felt overwhelmed this past week and all the outside factors BESIDES school are not helping.
Took my 323 exam (interpersonal relationships) today at 2. It went okay. i felt really under prepared for it and i hate hate hate that feeling. But i got the discussion question so i guess that's good. I dunno. To be honest interpersonal relationships are the LAST thing i want to be studying right now.
i also took my personality midterm tonight. That was pleasantly easier than i expected. I was super under prepared for that too but whatever. That teacher is an absolute joke, and would be a damn fool if she didn't curve it. So i finished that exam; do i feel like i know what i just completed? No. Sucks.
Sat in the compass after that exam in the dark and the quite and the borderline pleasant weather and sucked down a cigarette in an attempt to relax a little bit. i like hanging out on campus at night, it's a totally different place. Shafer had a burrito bar, and i watched a video of a cat leaping into a wall. That was about the highlight of my day.
The office was new, and kind of funny. I've seen more hilarious episodes. Quest crew won ABDC and i'm not mad because their last performance was fucking legit. It was REALLY good. Beat Freaks are my girls though for real, i'm super proud of them. And quest reminds me so much of jabbawockeez and super crew that i was kind of hoping that something different would happen. But whatever. Like i said, they deserve it i can't even be mad.
And now, i'm sitting in my room at my desk trying to study Normal Distributions. Correction trying to simply FOCUS on normal distributions. It's not going well. Obviously.
Whatever. I just gotta get through one more test and then i can be done and pack up my shit and go home and stop being strong and keeping myself together because someone will be around to take care of me when i lose my fucking mind.
It's going to happen soon.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
remember that time....
Remember that time that i thought i had enough interesting shit to write about that i thought it would be a good idea to start a blog??
And then remember that OTHER time where i had trouble keeping up with it because college is being well, college and bubble blaster and life and relationships of various sorts and events were distracting me?
OH YEA that would be now.
It snowed for ONCE in Richmond on sunday/monday. It NEVER snows here. It will snow in all the neighboring counties, but it will totally avoid the city. But we got a good 4 inches or so sunday evening and it was INCREDIBLE!! We had a snowball fight on our street, and there was a HUGE snowball fight in the park, and we built a snowman in front of the cancer center and on our back porch. And it was so awesome because everyone was just SO HAPPY and playing and being a kid. And suddenly all the tests and papers and stress didn't matter.
Then school got cancled on monday. THIS NEVER HAPPENS!! The streets were a mess and my exams got pushed back and everyone was just running around campus all day playing in the snow. I truly believe that having a snow day was one of the healthiest things to happen to VCU in a long time. It was like seeing the stress just evaporate out of everyone and smiles form on their faces. And the fact that i had to study didn't even matter because i knew there was snow outside.
Now, it's all melting. The city is still a gross slushy mess but it's supposed to be in the 70's on saturday. If this isn't a sign of global warming then i don't know what is.
So my chem test that was supposed to be on monday was today. it went well. My interpersonal relationships exam that was supposed to be on tuesday is tommorrow ALONG with my personality midterm *gun to head* and my stats test is on friday *fire gun again*.
AND THEN IT'S SPRING BREAK.
I'm going home friday because i'm just gonna want to get the hell out of here. I don't really have huge plans for break, except catch up on the sleep that's been running away from me and enjoy an empty house.
Goals:
- SLEEP
- get haircut (i'm lookin a lil shaggy)
- go grocery shopping.
- go shopping in general. Try and convince mom to pay
- hang out with important people who i miss
- convince my brother to get his shit together
- POSSIBLY visit soco? this is a huge maybe.
- visit work
- MAIL PACKAGE. This is very important!!!!!
- figure out summer plans. Stay in richmond? Go home? What type of job? etc etc
- figure out car situation
- start trying to find movies for my abnormal psych paper
- RELAXXXX. Luckily, all my exams are right before break so i don't have anything to worry about! YAY
On a few other random notes, I'm suddenly super into trying to find my Power Animal. If you don't know what this means, google it because i don't feel like explaining right now. But my friend asked his to come out and play with him and it revealed itself to him in a dream! Like fight club where he goes in the cave and it's a fox! I'm super jealous and am gonna ask mine to reveal itself to me.
Don't ask why this is so important to me, because i really can't give you an answer.
Part of me just thinks its stress. But whatever.
Also, i decided that i'm not happy with my blog layout. So over the break (when the internet is more reliable) i will be tweaking how it looks and stuff. Makeover!! Don't be surprised if it's something drastic. I'm at a point in my life where i crave change.
i actually crave a lot of things right now, but that is a different post for a different day. Right now i need to sleep because i have abnormal psych in 6 hours and 2 exams.
One last thing: if you haven't already, please youtube Mr. Chi City. You will not be disappointed. Hit me with that dun dun dun DUN!
And then remember that OTHER time where i had trouble keeping up with it because college is being well, college and bubble blaster and life and relationships of various sorts and events were distracting me?
OH YEA that would be now.
It snowed for ONCE in Richmond on sunday/monday. It NEVER snows here. It will snow in all the neighboring counties, but it will totally avoid the city. But we got a good 4 inches or so sunday evening and it was INCREDIBLE!! We had a snowball fight on our street, and there was a HUGE snowball fight in the park, and we built a snowman in front of the cancer center and on our back porch. And it was so awesome because everyone was just SO HAPPY and playing and being a kid. And suddenly all the tests and papers and stress didn't matter.
Then school got cancled on monday. THIS NEVER HAPPENS!! The streets were a mess and my exams got pushed back and everyone was just running around campus all day playing in the snow. I truly believe that having a snow day was one of the healthiest things to happen to VCU in a long time. It was like seeing the stress just evaporate out of everyone and smiles form on their faces. And the fact that i had to study didn't even matter because i knew there was snow outside.
Now, it's all melting. The city is still a gross slushy mess but it's supposed to be in the 70's on saturday. If this isn't a sign of global warming then i don't know what is.
So my chem test that was supposed to be on monday was today. it went well. My interpersonal relationships exam that was supposed to be on tuesday is tommorrow ALONG with my personality midterm *gun to head* and my stats test is on friday *fire gun again*.
AND THEN IT'S SPRING BREAK.
I'm going home friday because i'm just gonna want to get the hell out of here. I don't really have huge plans for break, except catch up on the sleep that's been running away from me and enjoy an empty house.
Goals:
- SLEEP
- get haircut (i'm lookin a lil shaggy)
- go grocery shopping.
- go shopping in general. Try and convince mom to pay
- hang out with important people who i miss
- convince my brother to get his shit together
- POSSIBLY visit soco? this is a huge maybe.
- visit work
- MAIL PACKAGE. This is very important!!!!!
- figure out summer plans. Stay in richmond? Go home? What type of job? etc etc
- figure out car situation
- start trying to find movies for my abnormal psych paper
- RELAXXXX. Luckily, all my exams are right before break so i don't have anything to worry about! YAY
On a few other random notes, I'm suddenly super into trying to find my Power Animal. If you don't know what this means, google it because i don't feel like explaining right now. But my friend asked his to come out and play with him and it revealed itself to him in a dream! Like fight club where he goes in the cave and it's a fox! I'm super jealous and am gonna ask mine to reveal itself to me.
Don't ask why this is so important to me, because i really can't give you an answer.
Part of me just thinks its stress. But whatever.
Also, i decided that i'm not happy with my blog layout. So over the break (when the internet is more reliable) i will be tweaking how it looks and stuff. Makeover!! Don't be surprised if it's something drastic. I'm at a point in my life where i crave change.
i actually crave a lot of things right now, but that is a different post for a different day. Right now i need to sleep because i have abnormal psych in 6 hours and 2 exams.
One last thing: if you haven't already, please youtube Mr. Chi City. You will not be disappointed. Hit me with that dun dun dun DUN!
Sunday, February 22, 2009
fail fail faaaail
i have ANOTHER statistics test tomorrow. And i'm not ready. Again. YAAAY FOR FAILING. What is it about the second semester that my motivation just flies away and doesn't come back??
i'm watching the oscars right now and the musical numbers are making me very happy except that i hate zac effron. Thats really it more lata
i'm watching the oscars right now and the musical numbers are making me very happy except that i hate zac effron. Thats really it more lata
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
i need to get my shit together
i haven't done like anything that i need to do. i'm way behind on all my reading even though i'm TRYING to catch up. And i legit failed my last Stats test. And my stuff is like all over the place and my room is a mess. Fail fail fail.
Also, law and order SVU is super intense right now. This transgender kid tried to kill his dad. And i'm def getting sick. I swear to god if i got mono from molly i'm gonna bust some heads....
Also, law and order SVU is super intense right now. This transgender kid tried to kill his dad. And i'm def getting sick. I swear to god if i got mono from molly i'm gonna bust some heads....
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Soul Meets Body
Things i should be doing right now:
- stupid 2 page interpersonal relationships 323 paper
- sleeping.
What i'm currently doing:
- eating leftover chili made by mom
- accompanied by fritos
- listening to Plans by death cab for cutie
- pondering my life
i've decided that i'm starting over. And doing whatever the hell i want. And have since come up with a short list of goals that i am going to pursue. They are as follows:
- find an internship. Preferably a paid one. I would LOVE to have one this summer but i know application deadlines are soon and haven't really found anything that i like.
- find a job that DOESN'T involve working for my father. Sorry, not doing it again this summer.
- study abroad. i wish the info sessions weren't during when i had class.
- persuade the parentals to let me have a car at school. And if that doesn't work, start the process of buying my own car.
- travel travel travel
So far, that's it. I'll add more later.
- stupid 2 page interpersonal relationships 323 paper
- sleeping.
What i'm currently doing:
- eating leftover chili made by mom
- accompanied by fritos
- listening to Plans by death cab for cutie
- pondering my life
i've decided that i'm starting over. And doing whatever the hell i want. And have since come up with a short list of goals that i am going to pursue. They are as follows:
- find an internship. Preferably a paid one. I would LOVE to have one this summer but i know application deadlines are soon and haven't really found anything that i like.
- find a job that DOESN'T involve working for my father. Sorry, not doing it again this summer.
- study abroad. i wish the info sessions weren't during when i had class.
- persuade the parentals to let me have a car at school. And if that doesn't work, start the process of buying my own car.
- travel travel travel
So far, that's it. I'll add more later.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Trash
So i have a statistics test tomorrow that i really don't know how to do anything. And a paper due thursday where i'm on like page 5 of the 20 page article i have to write said paper on. So, naturally i'm fucking around watching shitty tv.
i decided at 10 i was gonna break from statistics to watch law and order SVU. But to my disappointment it wasn't on, Dateline was on with a super exclusive interview with the mom of the octuplets.
Now, besides the fact that this woman seems very psychotic and i'm concerned about the whole how the hell she's going to support 14 kids thing, i personally think she's got something else goin on up there.
AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO THINKS SHE LOOKS LIKE ANGELINA JOLIE??? She clearly has had some sort of plastic surgery done, look at those lips!! She probably like, not only is obsessed with having children but thinks she can pull an angelina jolie and just have 500 kids and everyone will adore her and support her and she'll get her own show like john and kate plus 8.
SIIIIKE.
ok 1) angelina jolie is married (to brad pitt that lucky bitch) and this woman is not. So while it's possible her and brad will split (dear lord i hope not) there will at least be a father there for the kids. 2) angelina also is freaking rich as hell, not living in her parents house off of welfare and student loans (which, bee tee dub you have to pay back!! it's not free money!!) so her kids are in a much better economic situation where they're being taken care of properly and will be sure to get all the things (diapers, proper nutrition) that they need. Crazy crazy crazy. If i were angelina i would be mortified.
i also was watching the premier of "from g's to gents" which is another crappy mtv reality show that i for some reason can tolerate. It's all about these "g's" that go on this show and are turned into gentlemen by fansworth bently. It's really quite terrible yet awesome at the same time. Like these dudes make damn FOOLS out of themselves. This one guy "riff raff" has "weave" in his hair that's yarn. Colored yarn. He's white. I'm not making this up.
The back to the future movies are being re released on dvd. I want them. I just saw the commercial.
Okay so NOW i'm watching TLC because i sort of missed the duggar wedding when it premiered so i wanted ot watch it again plus there isn't anything else on. And there's an ad for one of those obscure sunday night documentaries titled "worlds heaviest man gets married" and from what i can tell he just like, has this giant portable bed that's decorated all weddingy and people like are rolling him around at his wedding! like he doesn't even get out of the bed!! how the HELL did he find someone to marry him? gross.
On another random note, the kids getting married on the duggar wedding haven't kissed had sex nothing! they're like 20 or something. Their kiss at their wedding will be their first!!! obsure.
Also, if someone could buy me this, i would be very very excited. Thanks.
i decided at 10 i was gonna break from statistics to watch law and order SVU. But to my disappointment it wasn't on, Dateline was on with a super exclusive interview with the mom of the octuplets.
Now, besides the fact that this woman seems very psychotic and i'm concerned about the whole how the hell she's going to support 14 kids thing, i personally think she's got something else goin on up there.AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO THINKS SHE LOOKS LIKE ANGELINA JOLIE??? She clearly has had some sort of plastic surgery done, look at those lips!! She probably like, not only is obsessed with having children but thinks she can pull an angelina jolie and just have 500 kids and everyone will adore her and support her and she'll get her own show like john and kate plus 8.
SIIIIKE.
ok 1) angelina jolie is married (to brad pitt that lucky bitch) and this woman is not. So while it's possible her and brad will split (dear lord i hope not) there will at least be a father there for the kids. 2) angelina also is freaking rich as hell, not living in her parents house off of welfare and student loans (which, bee tee dub you have to pay back!! it's not free money!!) so her kids are in a much better economic situation where they're being taken care of properly and will be sure to get all the things (diapers, proper nutrition) that they need. Crazy crazy crazy. If i were angelina i would be mortified.
i also was watching the premier of "from g's to gents" which is another crappy mtv reality show that i for some reason can tolerate. It's all about these "g's" that go on this show and are turned into gentlemen by fansworth bently. It's really quite terrible yet awesome at the same time. Like these dudes make damn FOOLS out of themselves. This one guy "riff raff" has "weave" in his hair that's yarn. Colored yarn. He's white. I'm not making this up.
The back to the future movies are being re released on dvd. I want them. I just saw the commercial.
Okay so NOW i'm watching TLC because i sort of missed the duggar wedding when it premiered so i wanted ot watch it again plus there isn't anything else on. And there's an ad for one of those obscure sunday night documentaries titled "worlds heaviest man gets married" and from what i can tell he just like, has this giant portable bed that's decorated all weddingy and people like are rolling him around at his wedding! like he doesn't even get out of the bed!! how the HELL did he find someone to marry him? gross.
On another random note, the kids getting married on the duggar wedding haven't kissed had sex nothing! they're like 20 or something. Their kiss at their wedding will be their first!!! obsure.
Also, if someone could buy me this, i would be very very excited. Thanks.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Sober House
So i don't know if you picked up on this, but i am OBSESSED with shows about addiction. It absolutely fascinates me, perhaps it's personal experience or something i don't know. I love the shows invervention, celebrity rehab with dr. drew (my hero), sober house, etc. And right now Andy Dick has come to the sober house and i absolutely love him and i am all sorts of excited about a topic i PROBABLY shouldn't be excited about. But seriously, Dr. Drew Pinsky is one of my heros. And he's really good looking.
This weekend is homecoming. N.E.R.D concert is tomorrow, chill and grill is on saturday along with the basketball game (william and mary you're going down). Also jeff is coming up from tech this weekend to help his brother move into his apartment so we're going to hang out and that will be good to catch up. This weekend SHOULD be fun unless something goes horribly wrong.
LAST weekend was really fun considering there wasn't really anything going on. i got... smashed. i mean i don't think i've ever been this drunk before; falling all over the place, being dragged/carried home, thinking that boys i KNOW aren't attractive were really cute, practically passing out on someone elses couch, and not remember various other things that happened. All things i'm not particularly proud of, but at the same time it was nice for once to not be taking care of other people and have them take care of me.
Monday we played charades for like 2 hours and it was really fun. And i laughed a lot and it was great and something new to do. Methinks it's gonna be a regular.
i hate hate HATE the video for beyonce's "diva". It's really terrible and sort of ruined a song that i really liked. The SONG is fucking hot. The video makes no sense. Also, she needs to get over the whole leotard thing. It's really not that impressive.
i found an internship/research program thing for the social sciences online at the University of Maryland. WITH a stipend!! But it's all "we're about diversity" which is great and all, but let's be honest that doesn't mean they'll let some middleclass white girl in. Probably decreases my chances of getting in. But the application is due feb 13th and requires 2 recommendations so i need to make some sort of decision IF i want to apply. Thoughts? i'm inclined to go for it.
Also, i decided to write the ex boyfriend a letter and put it in the box of his stuff that i'm sending back to him. i've started writing the draft. i'm not sure if this is a good idea, but i'm doin it anyway.
This weekend is homecoming. N.E.R.D concert is tomorrow, chill and grill is on saturday along with the basketball game (william and mary you're going down). Also jeff is coming up from tech this weekend to help his brother move into his apartment so we're going to hang out and that will be good to catch up. This weekend SHOULD be fun unless something goes horribly wrong.
LAST weekend was really fun considering there wasn't really anything going on. i got... smashed. i mean i don't think i've ever been this drunk before; falling all over the place, being dragged/carried home, thinking that boys i KNOW aren't attractive were really cute, practically passing out on someone elses couch, and not remember various other things that happened. All things i'm not particularly proud of, but at the same time it was nice for once to not be taking care of other people and have them take care of me.
Monday we played charades for like 2 hours and it was really fun. And i laughed a lot and it was great and something new to do. Methinks it's gonna be a regular.
i hate hate HATE the video for beyonce's "diva". It's really terrible and sort of ruined a song that i really liked. The SONG is fucking hot. The video makes no sense. Also, she needs to get over the whole leotard thing. It's really not that impressive.
i found an internship/research program thing for the social sciences online at the University of Maryland. WITH a stipend!! But it's all "we're about diversity" which is great and all, but let's be honest that doesn't mean they'll let some middleclass white girl in. Probably decreases my chances of getting in. But the application is due feb 13th and requires 2 recommendations so i need to make some sort of decision IF i want to apply. Thoughts? i'm inclined to go for it.
Also, i decided to write the ex boyfriend a letter and put it in the box of his stuff that i'm sending back to him. i've started writing the draft. i'm not sure if this is a good idea, but i'm doin it anyway.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
25 Things About Me
1. i am constantly reminded that life is full of surprises. A new chapter in my life is beginning and i am so excited and curious yet absolutely terrified and sad at the same time.
2. At 20 years old, i have carpal tunnel syndrome.
3. If you asked me what my plan was 2 years ago, i would've said Dance Major with dreams of dancing in a modern company. Now, i'm a psychology major who's considering working with drug addicts.
4. I'm learning to control my big mouth. It's HARD. i always feel the need to share my opinion or tell someone what i know and a lot of times i come of as rude because of it. I don't do it on purpose, it's just the way i am. If i start to interrupt you or say something i shouldn't, just tell me and i'll stop.
5. i've sent in multiple secrets to postsecret
6. i love super awesome, super crappy movies. Like you got served, lifetime movies, anything that gets shown on Vh1, etc.
7. i'm always on the lookout for new music. Think you got something i'd like? Send it to me, i'll try anything once.
8. The try anything once goes for food too. Unless it has any sort of eye type thing associated with it. This INCLUDES fish that still have the head attached.
9. Speaking of fish, i don't like to eat it. there are VERY few exceptions to my dislike of seafood
10. i appreciate a good joke/prank even if it's at my expense. if it's funny, i'll probably laugh.
11. Speaking of jokes, i like dead baby jokes. i KNOW they're absolutely terrible. But for some horrible reason i laugh anyway
12. I like to have fun in OTHER ways besides getting hammered. This includes charades, board games, going places, etc. Not to say that getting hammered isn't fun too...
13. i think that everyone just needs to back the fuck off Michael Phelps. Yes, he screwed up and will have to live with that for the rest of his life. But let's just think about all the 23 (?) year olds we know, and what THEY'RE doing on the weekends. And they don't have ANY Olympic gold medals.
14. i have 15 years of dance training. And my college friends don't understand that part of my life because they never witnessed it. I miss dance everyday.
15. i appreciate art. Something else a lot of people don't get about me, because i'm not an art student. I almost was...
16. i HATE HATE HATE olive garden commercials, because everyone in them acts like a total idiot.
17. i HATE idiots. Even though sometimes i do idiotic things
18. My favorite flavor is Red
19. I'm good at describing smells. Weird i know...
20. i'll sacrifice a lot (such as looking good/eating) to get more sleep in the morning.
21. The things that i regret are almost always things i had no control over. Such as accidents, being in the wrong place at the wrong time, or just NOT being able to control the situation.
22. i have a hetero life partner name patricia. We share soul, and are the kind of best friends where no one else knows what the hell we're talking abot.
23. i have ODD obsessions. Including but not limited to raptors, tina chen, ghosts, trashy reality shows, and secret trois on youtube.
24. i am TERRIBLE at abandoning people i care about, even if they've hurt me in terrible ways. i might get mad, stop talking to you for awhile, or try and cut you out of my life, but if i truly care about you i will NEVER be able to just walk away.
25. i'm a saggitarius through and through. It's kind of scary how well it describes me....
2. At 20 years old, i have carpal tunnel syndrome.
3. If you asked me what my plan was 2 years ago, i would've said Dance Major with dreams of dancing in a modern company. Now, i'm a psychology major who's considering working with drug addicts.
4. I'm learning to control my big mouth. It's HARD. i always feel the need to share my opinion or tell someone what i know and a lot of times i come of as rude because of it. I don't do it on purpose, it's just the way i am. If i start to interrupt you or say something i shouldn't, just tell me and i'll stop.
5. i've sent in multiple secrets to postsecret
6. i love super awesome, super crappy movies. Like you got served, lifetime movies, anything that gets shown on Vh1, etc.
7. i'm always on the lookout for new music. Think you got something i'd like? Send it to me, i'll try anything once.
8. The try anything once goes for food too. Unless it has any sort of eye type thing associated with it. This INCLUDES fish that still have the head attached.
9. Speaking of fish, i don't like to eat it. there are VERY few exceptions to my dislike of seafood
10. i appreciate a good joke/prank even if it's at my expense. if it's funny, i'll probably laugh.
11. Speaking of jokes, i like dead baby jokes. i KNOW they're absolutely terrible. But for some horrible reason i laugh anyway
12. I like to have fun in OTHER ways besides getting hammered. This includes charades, board games, going places, etc. Not to say that getting hammered isn't fun too...
13. i think that everyone just needs to back the fuck off Michael Phelps. Yes, he screwed up and will have to live with that for the rest of his life. But let's just think about all the 23 (?) year olds we know, and what THEY'RE doing on the weekends. And they don't have ANY Olympic gold medals.
14. i have 15 years of dance training. And my college friends don't understand that part of my life because they never witnessed it. I miss dance everyday.
15. i appreciate art. Something else a lot of people don't get about me, because i'm not an art student. I almost was...
16. i HATE HATE HATE olive garden commercials, because everyone in them acts like a total idiot.
17. i HATE idiots. Even though sometimes i do idiotic things
18. My favorite flavor is Red
19. I'm good at describing smells. Weird i know...
20. i'll sacrifice a lot (such as looking good/eating) to get more sleep in the morning.
21. The things that i regret are almost always things i had no control over. Such as accidents, being in the wrong place at the wrong time, or just NOT being able to control the situation.
22. i have a hetero life partner name patricia. We share soul, and are the kind of best friends where no one else knows what the hell we're talking abot.
23. i have ODD obsessions. Including but not limited to raptors, tina chen, ghosts, trashy reality shows, and secret trois on youtube.
24. i am TERRIBLE at abandoning people i care about, even if they've hurt me in terrible ways. i might get mad, stop talking to you for awhile, or try and cut you out of my life, but if i truly care about you i will NEVER be able to just walk away.
25. i'm a saggitarius through and through. It's kind of scary how well it describes me....
Friday, January 30, 2009
“I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm upset that from now on I can't believe you”
I haven't been on here in 5,000 years. And for that, i apologize. A lot has happened these past 2 weeks. And i mean A LOT a lot. As in i can't believe that it's only actually been 2 weeks because it feels like it's been 2 months a lot.
We have a new president. Like he's ACTUALLY president, residing in the white house. That's gonna take awhile to get used to.
During this "time of change", things were changing in my life as well. (Please ignore the incorrect grammar in previous sentence). A new semester started, and i'm still adjusting to everything and trying to figure out how much work each class is going to ACTUALLY take and how much sleep i can survive on. I'm still having SERIOUS doubts about my personality "and personal growth" (wtf?) class.
Also, during this time me and my boyfriend of 2 years and some change split up. Did i see it coming? No. i feel as though i've been hit by a train. Not only have we been in a serious relationship for AWHILE, we've also known each other forever and have quite a bit of past history. And when i mean "forever" i mean met in elementary school can't remember when/exactly how we met forever. i know him very very well, and he knows me. I'll spare you all the messy details, but he needed "a break" to get his life together. And i was sad and upset. And then, i discovered what i consider to be the ultimate betrayal and we went from being on a break to broken up (this is the very short version). Is it forever? I don't know. I hope not, but at the same time maybe this needed to happen, maybe we needed to get away and really see what was happening outside of us. I believe that if we are meant to be together, we will be in the end.
It hurts. That's the only thing i can say, is that i'm HURT in multiple ways. I'm working on this whole forgiveness thing, but at the same time i'm determined to never have this happen to me ever again. What hurts even more, is that i still miss him and love him and wish he was here with me right now, and that deep down i know he's a good guy who just made a mistake. Does that really make it okay? No. But this would be a lot easier to deal with if he was a total asshole and treated me like absolute shit. And he didn't. And i still care about him and i know he's hurting but i can't be there for him right now. And that just sucks even more. And we weren't able to share the joy of welcoming the new administration, something we should've been celebrating together, because we were on such rocky terms.
However, i'm holding up relatively well. I went through a week of being completely miserable and skipping assorted classes and laying in bed watching desperate housewives. I went home this past weekend and that helped a LOT. It felt good to just be there and talk to my mom about everything and get various perspectives. I'm currently continuing to live my life, despite being constantly reminded of him and wanting to talk to him. But such is the way of a hard break up.
I'm currently in the "eating your feelings stage". But that's fine. My metabolism is keeping up.
The trust that has been built up over the years, the image that i've held in my heart and my head has been shattered. And hopefully one day will be restored, although that will be a very long and intense journey.
BUT IN OTHER NEWS.
i didn't make STRUT this year and i'm fucking pissed, because i had a good try out and i made it last year. It's totally disappointing because i REALLY wanted to do it this year because it looks absolutely wild. Bummed bummed bummed. CAN'T CATCH A FUCKING BREAK.
Also, the chief of VCU police has been arrested for soliciting a minor online. Like legit CAUGHT in a sting operation. He thought he was talking to a 14 year old. Trying to solicte sex. HI THIS IS NOT OKAY!!! Not only is this creepy and weird and terrible, but way to make VCU look bad YET AGAIN!!! i mean, if you can't trust the people who are supposed to protect you, who can you trust?? As i've learned earlier these past few weeks, you can't trust anyone. And that's just terrible. VCU needs to do some SERIOUS house cleaning, because there are some shady ass characters here that need to be disposed of. We really can't afford anymore fuck ups and bad press. Especially since student safety is something that the school prides itself on. Read for more details here.
What else. Anything else? i don't think so. That's the brief update on where i've been. Deeper/better stuff later. I just wanted the world to know that i'm not dead, and coping.
"Trust is like a vase... once it's broken, though you can fix it the vase will never be the same again"
We have a new president. Like he's ACTUALLY president, residing in the white house. That's gonna take awhile to get used to.
During this "time of change", things were changing in my life as well. (Please ignore the incorrect grammar in previous sentence). A new semester started, and i'm still adjusting to everything and trying to figure out how much work each class is going to ACTUALLY take and how much sleep i can survive on. I'm still having SERIOUS doubts about my personality "and personal growth" (wtf?) class.
Also, during this time me and my boyfriend of 2 years and some change split up. Did i see it coming? No. i feel as though i've been hit by a train. Not only have we been in a serious relationship for AWHILE, we've also known each other forever and have quite a bit of past history. And when i mean "forever" i mean met in elementary school can't remember when/exactly how we met forever. i know him very very well, and he knows me. I'll spare you all the messy details, but he needed "a break" to get his life together. And i was sad and upset. And then, i discovered what i consider to be the ultimate betrayal and we went from being on a break to broken up (this is the very short version). Is it forever? I don't know. I hope not, but at the same time maybe this needed to happen, maybe we needed to get away and really see what was happening outside of us. I believe that if we are meant to be together, we will be in the end.
It hurts. That's the only thing i can say, is that i'm HURT in multiple ways. I'm working on this whole forgiveness thing, but at the same time i'm determined to never have this happen to me ever again. What hurts even more, is that i still miss him and love him and wish he was here with me right now, and that deep down i know he's a good guy who just made a mistake. Does that really make it okay? No. But this would be a lot easier to deal with if he was a total asshole and treated me like absolute shit. And he didn't. And i still care about him and i know he's hurting but i can't be there for him right now. And that just sucks even more. And we weren't able to share the joy of welcoming the new administration, something we should've been celebrating together, because we were on such rocky terms.
However, i'm holding up relatively well. I went through a week of being completely miserable and skipping assorted classes and laying in bed watching desperate housewives. I went home this past weekend and that helped a LOT. It felt good to just be there and talk to my mom about everything and get various perspectives. I'm currently continuing to live my life, despite being constantly reminded of him and wanting to talk to him. But such is the way of a hard break up.
I'm currently in the "eating your feelings stage". But that's fine. My metabolism is keeping up.
The trust that has been built up over the years, the image that i've held in my heart and my head has been shattered. And hopefully one day will be restored, although that will be a very long and intense journey.
BUT IN OTHER NEWS.
i didn't make STRUT this year and i'm fucking pissed, because i had a good try out and i made it last year. It's totally disappointing because i REALLY wanted to do it this year because it looks absolutely wild. Bummed bummed bummed. CAN'T CATCH A FUCKING BREAK.
Also, the chief of VCU police has been arrested for soliciting a minor online. Like legit CAUGHT in a sting operation. He thought he was talking to a 14 year old. Trying to solicte sex. HI THIS IS NOT OKAY!!! Not only is this creepy and weird and terrible, but way to make VCU look bad YET AGAIN!!! i mean, if you can't trust the people who are supposed to protect you, who can you trust?? As i've learned earlier these past few weeks, you can't trust anyone. And that's just terrible. VCU needs to do some SERIOUS house cleaning, because there are some shady ass characters here that need to be disposed of. We really can't afford anymore fuck ups and bad press. Especially since student safety is something that the school prides itself on. Read for more details here.
What else. Anything else? i don't think so. That's the brief update on where i've been. Deeper/better stuff later. I just wanted the world to know that i'm not dead, and coping.
"Trust is like a vase... once it's broken, though you can fix it the vase will never be the same again"
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Don inarrupt. Rude!
This game was totally unfair. The refs were bullshittin it. Wonder how much they got paid.
Monday, January 12, 2009
i'm very excited
there's already talk of shutting down Guantanamo Bay. Within Obama's firs week in office. SCORE SCORE SCORE.
Also, the Bishop Gene Robinson is in charge of the Invocation on Sunday at the lincoln memorial. For those who don't know, this is the Episcopal Church's openly gay bishop that has struck up a lot of controversy within the church. Being Episcopalian, this directly affects me. This is sure to stir up some controversy, especially at home.
very very excited. Look like the new prez might actually come through!
Also, the Bishop Gene Robinson is in charge of the Invocation on Sunday at the lincoln memorial. For those who don't know, this is the Episcopal Church's openly gay bishop that has struck up a lot of controversy within the church. Being Episcopalian, this directly affects me. This is sure to stir up some controversy, especially at home.
very very excited. Look like the new prez might actually come through!
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee
So i don't know how many of you get the Washington Post, or how many out of those who do get the post read the Washington Post Magazine on Sundays, but when i'm home i like to read the newspaper in particularly the comics and the magazine which comes every sunday. Well this Sunday the main article was titled "Lives to Remember" and it was the life stories of 11 people who died in 2008 who are local to the area. These people are not famous or well known, in fact they are relatively unknown. But the lives they lived were extraordinary.
One man was a CIA agent in Russia during the Cold War, another a 22 year old girl who was determined to have a real wedding before losing her life to liver cancer 33 days later, yet another was a civil rights activist. So many incredible stories about the lives of the unknown. However the one that was the most interesting to me was about a doctor who worked at the Lorton Prison.
I live near the lorton prison, and my highschool was built on the property after the prison closed down. I was even lucky enough to go inside on a photography field trip before they started tearing down/renovating the facility to make it an Arts Center. It was an incredible experience that i'll never forget. So anyway this man was a doctor with a private practice who worked nights at the prison as their pysician. The story was all about how he truly cared for all of his patients, even "sugar bear" an inmate who the rest of the staff was terrified of. He could've been making the big bucks in a huge private practice and instead he kept it small, caring about local residents and the "scum of the earth" inmates. And that really touched me. And at his funeral, countless patients and former inmates showed up to pay their respects. He truly made a difference in so many lives and was loved by everyone. That's the kind of life i want to live.
And then this past weekend i also saw the movie The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button (by the way it's REALLY long and i still haven't really decided if i liked it or not) and it got me thinking about death. The basic plot of the movie is this man Benjamin who is born old, and gets younger as he ages. So when he's 7 years old his body is that of an 80 year old man, and by the time he dies he's a baby. But at the beggining of the movie, they're not sure how much time he has to live, and someone asks him if he's scared to die and he just says "I'm not really scared, just curious. There's nothing wrong with old age. "
Curious.
And this got me thinking about life and death. Everyone talks about living a fulfilling life, making money, being happy, having a family, whatever. But you never know when you're time is going to come. It could be tonight, tomorrow, next week, next month, 5 years from now, ANYTIME. I'm not preaching "our time here is short" because we all know this and it's very cliche. My point is that our time on earth is uncertain. Death does not discriminate. We all die. It is one thing that all humans have in common.
Alot of people are scared of death. I used to be one of them. And i think i was afraid because it's the unknown. Everyone has a belief about what happens to you when you die, whether its heaven or hell or reincarnation or fertilizer for a tree or whatever. But no one knows what ACTUALLY happens and that's why people are afraid. They're also afraid because they're worried they won't accomplish everything they wanted to. That they'll never start a successful business or be famous or become a CEO of a major corporation or publish a book or some big goal. But this article/movie got me thinking that even ordinary people live extraordinary lives. And while it might not be big and well known and glamorous, it doesn't make ones life less valuable than another persons.
So now i've decided that i'm not AFRAID of dying, because it's going to happen no matter what. And in the end i have no control over it. But i am extremely CURIOUS as to what death/dying is like. And i don't want to know ahead of time what it's going to be like. I want it to be an adventure, a new page. An epilogue.
Value what you have now. Pursue your dreams and live your life because you are not less valuable just because you're not on TV. It is the everyday people that lead the most impressive lives.
One man was a CIA agent in Russia during the Cold War, another a 22 year old girl who was determined to have a real wedding before losing her life to liver cancer 33 days later, yet another was a civil rights activist. So many incredible stories about the lives of the unknown. However the one that was the most interesting to me was about a doctor who worked at the Lorton Prison.
I live near the lorton prison, and my highschool was built on the property after the prison closed down. I was even lucky enough to go inside on a photography field trip before they started tearing down/renovating the facility to make it an Arts Center. It was an incredible experience that i'll never forget. So anyway this man was a doctor with a private practice who worked nights at the prison as their pysician. The story was all about how he truly cared for all of his patients, even "sugar bear" an inmate who the rest of the staff was terrified of. He could've been making the big bucks in a huge private practice and instead he kept it small, caring about local residents and the "scum of the earth" inmates. And that really touched me. And at his funeral, countless patients and former inmates showed up to pay their respects. He truly made a difference in so many lives and was loved by everyone. That's the kind of life i want to live.
And then this past weekend i also saw the movie The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button (by the way it's REALLY long and i still haven't really decided if i liked it or not) and it got me thinking about death. The basic plot of the movie is this man Benjamin who is born old, and gets younger as he ages. So when he's 7 years old his body is that of an 80 year old man, and by the time he dies he's a baby. But at the beggining of the movie, they're not sure how much time he has to live, and someone asks him if he's scared to die and he just says "I'm not really scared, just curious. There's nothing wrong with old age. "
Curious.
And this got me thinking about life and death. Everyone talks about living a fulfilling life, making money, being happy, having a family, whatever. But you never know when you're time is going to come. It could be tonight, tomorrow, next week, next month, 5 years from now, ANYTIME. I'm not preaching "our time here is short" because we all know this and it's very cliche. My point is that our time on earth is uncertain. Death does not discriminate. We all die. It is one thing that all humans have in common.
Alot of people are scared of death. I used to be one of them. And i think i was afraid because it's the unknown. Everyone has a belief about what happens to you when you die, whether its heaven or hell or reincarnation or fertilizer for a tree or whatever. But no one knows what ACTUALLY happens and that's why people are afraid. They're also afraid because they're worried they won't accomplish everything they wanted to. That they'll never start a successful business or be famous or become a CEO of a major corporation or publish a book or some big goal. But this article/movie got me thinking that even ordinary people live extraordinary lives. And while it might not be big and well known and glamorous, it doesn't make ones life less valuable than another persons.
So now i've decided that i'm not AFRAID of dying, because it's going to happen no matter what. And in the end i have no control over it. But i am extremely CURIOUS as to what death/dying is like. And i don't want to know ahead of time what it's going to be like. I want it to be an adventure, a new page. An epilogue.
Value what you have now. Pursue your dreams and live your life because you are not less valuable just because you're not on TV. It is the everyday people that lead the most impressive lives.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
So i have some things i want to talk about
Or maybe it's more like rant about? Whatever. The first issue is: THE SIZING OF WOMENS CLOTHING!!!
Okay now ladies, i KNOW you've encountered this issue. Some stores carry even sizes (2, 4, 6, 8 etc) others carry odd (0, 1, 3, 5, 7 etc), some carry both (4/5, 6/7, 8/9) and then SOME start out odd, but then as the size goes up they numbers turn even. And of course, the sizes are not standard. So while you might own a dress that's a size 4, you might also own one that's a 6 or an 8 or a 2 or a 5, because every store is different. And just when you've KIND of figured out the approximate range so you can accurately try things on, you encounter a store that goes by waist measurements or something (h&m) and are all thrown off. Don't even get me started on the whole small, medium, large thing because THAT is just anyones guess.
So i'm sure you're like "well, that's why you try things on." Okay DUH but this is not the point. When someone asks you your size because they're trying to buy you a gift or something, i bet you always say "well, it depends. A [medium] usually fits, or a [6] or an [8], but if it's pants than make sure they're long enough" and, if this person is a man, they just look at you and shake their head thinking "women make everything so damn complicated" BUT IT'S NOT OUR FAULT!!! And online shopping? That is literally a gamble unless you've tried something from the store/similar item on and know that it's going to fit.
However, MENS clothing on the one hand is far less complicated. Everything goes by waist size, so they know that if they're a 36 than a 36 pair of pants or whatever from essentially ANY store will fit. And if they're an XL, than an XL shirt etc. is going to fit from essentially ANY store. It is far less complicated. So why can't women's clothing be like this? Hrmmm?
I know i know "every woman is different" but the reality is that i should be able to say with confidence what my size is and know that said clothing item will probably fit. Yes a little tailoring might be needed for some, or in my case i just know i HAVE to by "long" pants/jeans. But can someone explain how, at target today, i bought 2 pairs of leggings. And one pair was from the "juniors" or w/e dept. and was a size medium. The other pair were from the GIRLS dept, and a size 10/12. AND THE ONES FROM THE GIRLS DEPARTMENT FIT ME BETTER!!?!?!?? CAN SOMEONE PLEASE EXPLAIN THIS TO ME? THEY'RE LEGGINGS, AND I'M 20 YEARS OLD LOOKING CRAZY CRUISING THE GIRLS DEPARTMENT AT TARGET!!!
Bra sizing is standard. Shoe size is standard. Mens clothing is standard. So retailers of the world, i propose to you that you STANDARDIZE womens clothing!! I don't care how you do it, just put us all out of our misery!
now i can't even remember what else i was going to talk about.... so worked up...
edit:
ok i remember now. The other thing i wanted to simply say was that Kanye West is losing his mind. i like his music, even if he seems to be kind of an asshole. He's different and creative and clearly very talented. His new album is very different and powerful, but i also think it's a sign that he's going insane. Like tragedy insane. Like potential find him dead one day insane. I also think Beyonce is slowly on the decline. I think she's about to peak and the whole changing her name thing to "sasha fierce" is a sign that something insane is about to happen. I could be totally wrong, but that's just what i think.
Also, i'm absolutely sick of people not knowing how to drive. Common sense and a turn signal people, that's all it takes!!
Okay now ladies, i KNOW you've encountered this issue. Some stores carry even sizes (2, 4, 6, 8 etc) others carry odd (0, 1, 3, 5, 7 etc), some carry both (4/5, 6/7, 8/9) and then SOME start out odd, but then as the size goes up they numbers turn even. And of course, the sizes are not standard. So while you might own a dress that's a size 4, you might also own one that's a 6 or an 8 or a 2 or a 5, because every store is different. And just when you've KIND of figured out the approximate range so you can accurately try things on, you encounter a store that goes by waist measurements or something (h&m) and are all thrown off. Don't even get me started on the whole small, medium, large thing because THAT is just anyones guess.
So i'm sure you're like "well, that's why you try things on." Okay DUH but this is not the point. When someone asks you your size because they're trying to buy you a gift or something, i bet you always say "well, it depends. A [medium] usually fits, or a [6] or an [8], but if it's pants than make sure they're long enough" and, if this person is a man, they just look at you and shake their head thinking "women make everything so damn complicated" BUT IT'S NOT OUR FAULT!!! And online shopping? That is literally a gamble unless you've tried something from the store/similar item on and know that it's going to fit.
However, MENS clothing on the one hand is far less complicated. Everything goes by waist size, so they know that if they're a 36 than a 36 pair of pants or whatever from essentially ANY store will fit. And if they're an XL, than an XL shirt etc. is going to fit from essentially ANY store. It is far less complicated. So why can't women's clothing be like this? Hrmmm?
I know i know "every woman is different" but the reality is that i should be able to say with confidence what my size is and know that said clothing item will probably fit. Yes a little tailoring might be needed for some, or in my case i just know i HAVE to by "long" pants/jeans. But can someone explain how, at target today, i bought 2 pairs of leggings. And one pair was from the "juniors" or w/e dept. and was a size medium. The other pair were from the GIRLS dept, and a size 10/12. AND THE ONES FROM THE GIRLS DEPARTMENT FIT ME BETTER!!?!?!?? CAN SOMEONE PLEASE EXPLAIN THIS TO ME? THEY'RE LEGGINGS, AND I'M 20 YEARS OLD LOOKING CRAZY CRUISING THE GIRLS DEPARTMENT AT TARGET!!!
Bra sizing is standard. Shoe size is standard. Mens clothing is standard. So retailers of the world, i propose to you that you STANDARDIZE womens clothing!! I don't care how you do it, just put us all out of our misery!
now i can't even remember what else i was going to talk about.... so worked up...
edit:
ok i remember now. The other thing i wanted to simply say was that Kanye West is losing his mind. i like his music, even if he seems to be kind of an asshole. He's different and creative and clearly very talented. His new album is very different and powerful, but i also think it's a sign that he's going insane. Like tragedy insane. Like potential find him dead one day insane. I also think Beyonce is slowly on the decline. I think she's about to peak and the whole changing her name thing to "sasha fierce" is a sign that something insane is about to happen. I could be totally wrong, but that's just what i think.
Also, i'm absolutely sick of people not knowing how to drive. Common sense and a turn signal people, that's all it takes!!
Saturday, January 3, 2009
cool shit
Face stickers for all your inanimate objects.
Bacon Band-Aids. They have a BUNCH of them, including lips, tattoos, pickles, toast, etc. Incredible.
Mini robot vacuum. Cleans up crumbs!!
Dogs Eye View camera. Attach it to your furry friend's collar, set it to take pictures at intervals, and then see what they've been doing all day while you were gone!!
USB cassett. Make a mix tape out of mp3s, give it as a gift, and they can plug it in and listen!
Finger plates! cool right? now you can hold your drink and eat your food without having to find a place to perch anything...All items can be found at fredflare.com
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